dailymanje07

2008-08-02T06:53:00.001-07:00

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2008-08-02T02:01:00.001-07:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-02T01:22:00.001-07:00

TESTING TESTING TESTING!

2008-08-01T00:38:00.000-07:00

TESTING TESTING TESTING

2005-06-21T23:29:00.000-07:00

wei! ha ha. yerlah. dam lamer kan tak update. well, i've been busy,hurted badly,and mad. ha ha. yahlar. stupid schools and start! and 3 more mths.. i have to go for attactchment. i mean its like only 3 mths,, halo??!!! did u hear 3 mths?? gaga. well. im in school library. new frens. new ppl. all new. its like a new life. and yes yes. yes it iss...

and yes yes yes yes yes!! 18th june. i saw him. like finally. awww..his face..exactly like pantat baby tao. sho cuteee... its like 100% acne free. im sooooo jeles. ah envy dat guy. but oh well, as i guess it. things willl be different.. no more regular sms-es... no more sweeetsss dreamsss.... no wonder i've been having nightmares all these while... ok lah. i miss pantat-baby alot. but ako sedar lah saper ako nie.. nak kasi his b'dae present oso porget. cos so happy mah! but..
ahhh..putt... kau bilang pantat baby...ako siku nanti!

oh gosh. dat doesnt sounds like sue.. hee hee hee.. well...think i gonna buy bmb b'dae present.. yah..dat thing oni lah.. me n jj.. weee.. a reunion..like finally. ok lah. it will be mths before another updates............ and yes. i have lectures.. all the till six pm! are they mad? or simply crazy?? i tot my muggin days are over... but its just started! wat am i to do in hosp ?????

2005-05-25T09:19:00.000-07:00

ala. dah agak sergio wins. >.<

here's the ratings ah of The Contender. damm MArk Brunett is a gooood.

1st- Sergio Mora, The Latin Snake
2nd-Peter Manfredo Junior, The Comback Kid
3rd-Alfonso Gomez, The Underdog
4th-Jesse Brinkley, The One That Beats Hairy.

lol . yar lar i made up the 4th one. hah. i 4got lah. weell. im too much into the contender. lol. ok lah. nuthin` much goin on wif my life. my bestie got a lappy. damm her. lol. nvm. at least she lets me abuse it once a while sooner or later. maybe spoilt it lah.. abitt here abitt there.. u noe me and things rite.. we like totally cross each other when it comes to TAKE CARE. k crap.

well. confirm. im quiting my job. its like totally no use werking. -.- less den 400 a mth. i rather sleep my ass off sleeping snoring at home sia. seriously. dats means. no digi. no new mobile. jus a lil shopping. ah. but my sis HAVE to get me a b'dae present. and hehehe.. yeah u read my mind.

ok lah ass. i need to do sumthin` about my blogg. ehh.. damm. im thinking of posting a quote at ever of my entries.. so here goes... i just wanna type it.. before i erase off of the other literall memories...

" Loves my pringcest........Loves my baby sue! Mmuah! sleep k awak.........."

yes. i've shortened it. cos it just hurt ah. s i noe ah he doesnt meant it. but y must he said it? and now. do u regret calling me dat? think about it. miss ya. byebye now.

well. i've found out ah! the contender singer. its hush ah. a rapper. oh my god. its like the 1st time i like a rap songs. it snice lah actuuly..contender nyer pasal.. but i cant find the lyric... ahh.. damm u technology!

fighter,
sue

lol!

2005-05-18T07:32:00.000-07:00

Finally, Peter Manfredo managed to proved to the world. that he is a better fighter. unlike ahmed. losing to alfonse the first time, made him realise dat wat his fighting for is more than one million dollar tao.but gotta admit lah. ahmed is such a funy guy. i mean he even dance in the ring while fighting.next. is Sergio VS Jesse Brinkley. oh my god. i love dem both. i hope they both win. which is impossiblle. lol. oklah okla. sergio shud win. eh.jeese shud win. lol i mean sergio..he's so clever..but jesse shud win ah..he got tacticcs. okok. i cannot do it. i cannot do it. may the better man win ok?!!

ok. finnally an update. lol. well, firstyly. i wanna apologise to mas, doctor, fox. sorry for pulling back. lol. hopefully u will find a drummer. which will be better. and i promise to be at all ure peformance aye? *sobs*

ok. i love my hair! i think im gonna stop werk ah. i try ah sch n werk for around a mth. if cannot. lol. really gootta stop werk. i mean its like soo far. or shud i ask for transfer at clementi ? hmm. neh.. i see 1st hor. clementi is soo near my hse.. everyone will noe me. lol. so shy u noe!

okok. i meet this guy. sharil. wow. wat a wonderfool guy he is! lol. u noe wat i mean. yey. and better yet. me n him is in same course. same sch. well. hopefully same class lah. which i strongly dun think so lah. well. his nice lah~ too bad his soo cranky today. due to his casper. lol. well eliza if ure reading.. hope u feel better aye ??

hmm. -.- my sis is goin to sydney. =[ i mean she's actually going?!! ahhh...

mom? dad? where are u? i need u guyz?

ahh. im soo cranky when der's no one to manje2 with. wish my cat is still alive. so i cant strangle him and let him scratch me all over. lol. ok lah. my sis is nagging. she just cant sleep w/o me by her side cant her? oritey. im gotta go.

hey. btw wat wan says abt him is true. and im sooooo happy i made the right move.. =]'

oh yah. tot oj joggin. but my joggin shoes are at musa hse. damm itt. well look on the brighter side.. at least i get to sleep till nOOn! ahah!

-`loves,
sue

2005-05-12T19:35:00.000-07:00

Key Specifications/Special Features:
Characteristics:

Pocket size: size of a cigarette case
User-friendly interface
MPEG-4 image compression technology with high image (full resolution VGA 640 x 480)
3.2M pixels 4T sensor which takes good video or pictures even in very dark environment
2.0-inch LTPS TFT color LCD panel
8X digital zoom
270-degree screen rotation
A 6-in-1 featured digital still camera, digital video camcorder, PC camera, MP3, voice recorder and USB mass storage device product
Uses 3.7V/1,000mA rechargeable Li-ion battery
Video-TV out for NTSC/PAL system
16MB internal flash memory and SD/MMC card slot up to 512 MB storage
Date and time stamp
Remaining memory/recording time management
Provides Japanese, English, Deutsch, Italian, Spanish, French, Chinese languages display
Properties:
Lens and sensor:
Sensor: 3.2M pixels 4T sensor
Lens: fixed focus, F3.0/f=8.54mm
Digital zoom: 8X for DVC and DSC
Focus range-macro: 35cm +/- 2cm
Focus range-portrait: 60cm to 100cm
Focus range-normal: 100cm to infinite
Shutter type: electrical shutter
Digital imaging and properties:
Display: 2-inch LTPS TFT LCD 640 x 240 pixels (LTPS: Low Temperature Poly Silicon)
High resolution: 300K pixels, most current 1.5-inch LCD has around 70K pixels
High brightness
High electron response speed
Low power consumption
Resolution (still image): 2976 x 2322 (6.6M); 2048 x 1536 (3.2M); 1024 x 768 (800k) pixels
Video clip: 640 x 480 (VGA); 320 x 240 (QVGA)
Web cam: 640 x 480/10fps; 320 x 240/30fps
Still image file format: JPEG (DCF compliance)
Video compression/file format: MPEG-4 (ASF)
Video recording time:
17 minutes at VGA/30fps HQ (for 256MB memory)
30 minutes at VGA/30fps SQ (for 256MB memory)
62 minutes at QVGA/30fps NQ (for 256MB memory)
No recording interruption/real-time video recording
Audio, video in/out:
Audio input: microphone mono
Audio output: speaker or earphone
TV output: for NTSC/PAL system

so this is wat im aiming fer. its 289 bucks. or 299 bucks. im not quite sure. if i were to buy nokia 6260, its 400 bucks. and i hev no money even for my ex-link! lols. so. hopefully to buy the digi cam and den beg my sister for 6260 for my b'dae present.. pay wif her credits cardties.. hee.

oh yah. cold storage idol coming up. my manager went thru. its merepek lah. but its entertaining u gotta admit.
well, adios now.
sue

2005-05-12T07:34:00.000-07:00

JESSE BRINKLE MENANG!
yey for tat!! and of cos. finally lar ey..the so called "determined" father kalah. determined my fooot. haha. think he nak make jesse like the cowboy. haha.over his dead body. well. actually im watching the contender. so. as u noe. byebye fer now.

the contender no. 1 fan,
sue

2005-05-04T21:58:00.000-07:00

oh my god. oh my god. im crying. der's a kitter kat luar. and he's so dirty. i gave him milk. but its raining. and he's outside. wanted to bring him in and wash tapi my sis dun lett. =[.

oh well. hope the rain stop. im going out! to queensway. ha ha. meet her again lor! going lucky plaza lar. haha. western ony ah she! well. had a blast from the past yesterday. and dont need dat. but hey, who am i to say rite?

sometimes i wonder. do people ever speaks the truth? do they? cos it hardly seems. every one who i thinks are speaking the truth..turns out not to. is lieing in the trend rite now? ok crapz. but before u lie.. or say somthing which u're not sure is true.. or worst still doenst meant it.. pls pls pls.. think twice. cos u wont noe how much it hurts ok.

k. oh yah. dis the pendant x japan. buy fer me can? b'dae present. its kinda nice lah. okok it is nice ok! if ony they had crafted kyo name.~

this pic nice hor! x hide n kyo. hahah.. kk here is the xjapan loket. actually cannot see ah.. haha but i remember clearly how it looks like. at hmv der..

haha..can see? hmm. k lah. just finish cooking. gonna eat now. so letahrgic nowadays.. haiz.. so sad. kk enough!

sign off,
sue

2005-05-03T12:38:00.000-07:00

hey. im going mad. im posting and my stereo wif hubab's noise. singing ha ha. loose my breathe. oh dear god help me. yak allah. naik giler. hubab pon giler.

well. i cant sleep. and i dono wat to pose.

going mad,
sue

2005-05-01T08:48:00.000-07:00

OK LAH . OK LAH . I NOT BUYING HP OK . SO STOP ASKING ME HOR . buttttttt... hee hee hee.. u noe i cant kip much cash rite ? well. im goin to get myself a digi cam! yes yes!!! cool aye? i noe . i noe . no need tell me . well, musa advise me get the latest one . the slim thingy. its like 700 bucks . lol. den get pay oso like neve get pay sey. well. think i buying ispan ahhh.. ha ha. we sure gonna be a cam whore someday lor. lols.

well, ever wonder how one can talk bad about some2 else? and worst still ure the middle man? the worst position eva kan?! den wat to do ah ? i feel terrible. but at least kiter tak join in kan ?weell. let time tell.

congrats to the stardom05' winner. i guess dats it ah. in my defence, dont i deserve a chance? wat wrong did i techniquelly do to not be given a chance ah ? im sad. yes i am. but i gonna stand up rite n moved on. but i mish duck alot alot. jus wann him to noe dat lar eh. i guess its a byebye duck?

oh well. my b'dae cumin tao. b'dae kiter is on 23rd june . he he. hints hints. bmb gotta get me a tiara.. a princess crown wif tiara lor. bah! imagine wif diamons on it.. place on my head. ever nicer if got the werding princesskyo on it. bah! stop dreaming lah sue. -____-"

ok lah. bought my self adidas original. yellow kaler. well u noe me. typical cancer who hates common stuff. tapi ramai orang ckp nice tao. and it is nice. esp on my hand.

eh. u noe i kena scolded buy a guy in this shop at hmv. hah. dey were selling x-japan loket. made in japan tao. so nice plak tuh. i wanna get a pic of it. so i took out my mobile phone. den clik n kene scold. but at least i got a snap shot of it. but the loket kenot see a bit ah. its 19.90 i think. if ony they got kyo pendant. i will buy it on the spot! ha ha. i wanna make myself a pendant ah. where to make ah? far east eh? tag me and tell ok.

well. i wanted to post some pics. but. change my mind. im gonna do a tremendous edit on my blog. so don be suprised hor. well.. i think ony ah. so busy wif werk n slacking. no social life. ha ha. okok. nak sleep. 2mrw princess gotta werk. oh yah. i jus realise. evry body into the theme princesse nowadays. glam here. glam der. princess here. princess der. or some with the pelat spelling. or prince. hah no offence u guys. kip it up. =\ i shudnt hev type dat shud i? oh well. my blog as some will say. i need to find a new theme.. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm well. i will still stick wif princesskyo. love him. oh yah. japan nak close hide nyer museum tao. so need to sign the petitions hor. jgn luper! wats with the malay sue? haha. nantok ah!

i need to forget baby duck. but i like him alott. kk sign off lah.

err..need-to-4get-baby-duck,
sue

p/s: lols

2005-04-28T06:54:00.000-07:00

ok lah. i figure out y just not post since im online and just staring at the screen?
ok. found out that najal turpin committed sucicide. he shot in his head in front of the gym he used to go in a carpark. and non of his fren knew y he did dat. oh my god. sergio the latin snake.. i love u.! hah. well. he just got the.. errrrrrrrr!!! u noe.. when som1 provoked u till the edge.. and u just go wat ross will say.. "RED ROSS".. grrrrrrr!! n walked away. u noe the strength it take to do it. noe anot u? alamak. well.sergio.. u hev all my support.. alfonse n peter.. all the best. sergio mura.. hope u win the contenderrrrrrrrrrr!

oh yah. bmb pic will be up. haha.. cant wait..lol but too bad cant sabor him to much lor. cos he got my pic. well.

there's sumthin` i wanted to post. but. i dowan to her to hurt or feel insecure.. so. just let me botled up inside as i usualy did. dats fer now. btw lawa kan blog kiter now? doodle0-board when wan to progress.. so long!!

frustrated,
sue

2005-04-19T19:56:00.000-07:00

today was such a wonderfull day. i met him. the perfect guy ever. but too bad. =[
well, i noe he said wat pass was pass.. but i was wishing the night cud never end.
but then it did. well, he was gentleman enough to wait fer my bus to come. i love him much. but dats just it.
thanks.bye.

errrr,
sue

2005-04-16T20:00:00.000-07:00

I knew from the beginning..
That you was just a flirt..
And yet I fell in love with you.
.Knowing I'd be hurt...
I thought I could tie you down..
And make you love just one..
But how could I do something
that no one else hasnever done..
I'll know you never love me...
And I'm trying not to cry...
For I must find the strength ..
somehow to kiss your lips goodbye..

its by my lurp... yes riot its you. hah.

emo eh? hahaha.. bmb will be complainin. k. i'll be away for weeks. dun miss me too much.

2005-04-13T19:36:00.000-07:00

hie.assalamualaikom. hah!

lesson learnt, never ever shop wif musa if u're wearing not a very foot-friendly shoe. ohhh.. no no no trust me. it hurts like hell. plus musa will just throw to you the shooping bag and march straight into another shop. i might even be lost, well you noe lah. stupid town wif stupid human traffics, plus its drixxling. damm it. i feel like im her bank, holding on to her sum of money, controlling her usage of it. damm.

eventhough` its fun. the two of us as usual. no no not only today. the other days to. yes yes we've been "escaping" from gatal. poor thing gatal. =[.

ah. as my geog t'cher will say "boh chap". oo talking abt t'chers, we went paiting. pher pher.. she is just so cute. tired still its fun. im not sure if we're tired of painting.. of laughing ?! we need to go back to sec sch. i need to hug my wonderfool ghani, fm, lim, lian, damm i miss how her hair looks like.

well, ther's still round of shopping to do, i just need to major stuff. nokia 6260.. bmb!!! and.. ispan digi-cam.. and the shoes!!! damm u musa.. grrr.... well. its three actually. oh yah., thanks for the mp3 musa.. i love it like hell!! and its not even my b'dae. yahoo.

went to school on wednesday.. coolshit i must say. the receptionist aunty still remeber me. yay! plus the uncle praised my name.. i agree wif it. but musa points of view.. just another way of pakcik gataling. grr.. whacking soon.

sadly, history repeated itself. damm. my heart sank deep. deep deep deep. kip saying to myself to live wif it.. and move on.. but everytime i did` i fall back again. well. all i need is time. but the question is.. how much longer?!!

we are gettin stranger by the day.

-= confession of a shoppaholick=- wat a wonderfool book.

occupied myself by reading book. damm sis still in bali. i heard i got a bag n wallet. yahoozies!

shoppaholick,
sue

2005-04-11T07:24:00.000-07:00

its amaxing how helping someone can make u feel wanderfool. o___O" really ok!

bah. i miss spca.

time passes by so fast. its goin to me may, soon came june. and im 17. bleaurgh. so young. wat the..
well, on my way back home, due to all the kanchong-ers squeezng each other in the mrt.. i figure out taking bus home will be more like a sardine can.. only worst.. due to the nice foul odours.. i decide to take a walk home. made me thinking..` wat will my future be like? soon soon. . . fer like 10 more years..` i'll be like wat.. 27.. doin wat? well if i dreamed correctly... i'll be holding a degree rool of papers.. with the graduation nite gown.. throwing dat dumm hats..taking silly photo's.. hah. like real sue..wake up!

i mean like yah.. wat's its gonna be like? 27.. wow.. old uh? my sis goin to bali tomorow.. she hadnt get her bagpack pack.. no checklist.. no hurry.. yet she's sitting beside me .. muchin` and watching my lekorr! grr.. damm u.. oh yah watchin cis miami btw.. hah. we two sis were like mad just now.. after screaming.. well u noe im a fan of THE CONTENDER.. and god damm it.. juan de le rosa won! yahooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!! i mean can u like imagine it... a man loose to a boy.. its like a pakcik loose to a mat. hah. kk lame. -_____-"

bah.cant wait fer wednesday. goin to simei... meet her.. off shoooping.. well if only abg jai wud kip his promise aite. =[

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. i think way too much.. or rather dream. hah. miss him. but well.` for goodness sake.. untill when sia sue? hahha.. kk moving on. damm! i dun even understand my post. bleurgh. byebye.

2005-04-09T21:07:00.000-07:00

aah. wasup wif the nicm " ah sue" .. " sue xie xie" .. ppl's been callin me dat. but yest. ahah~ princess came into the werld. wat the heck am i posting? even customer called me dat? wah ha ha. wahh..kak mia now got blog.. weeweeet.. friendster blog uh. said she needed my help? kak miaa wat help???? tag me again ok! hmmm!

wah. babi akak khidir got a job. wow. pizaa and wayang is on the way. yahoooooooooooo! its payback time.

intended to post a long entry.. but eventime i type a post.. my mind went blank? god dammit. posting mood it out. ahhh.

wat?!
sue

2005-04-06T07:10:00.000-07:00

hi. i feel so down. i mish him. but i noe who am i. kk. end it. who am i btw. wat am i talking?!

wee. just found out musa is my bestfriend. thanks pal~ but as true as he says. up to her to treat me the way she like. the fact is. i like how im being treated. hah. opoor thing her web. no fun yet. well i love her.

i love him indeed. but i guess....~ bla bla.

shop like hell. ahah. bloddy musa. better massage my feet ok u.

met khidir aka babi. ha ha. poor thing he. omost cry. lol. well he owe me alots! n i cant wait.

pizza is on the menu. 2 hungry babi's on the way.

feelin` down,
sue

2005-03-31T20:54:00.000-08:00

wow! shop shop shop! when will the fullstop be? or rather where will the fullstop be?

history rpeated itself. god damm. poor musa.

i guess dats it. not havin it vie versa. guess der's no use fer me to either. but eh question is. . y does i still do?

bmb were bz. guess hp next mth. but hey. at least i achieved wat to buy. well maybe abit more. blame her. she didnt stop me from shopping.

bands bands. oh no. a minah transforming. wat's werst den dat? im witness-ing it wif my very own eyes. oh no no.

dipshit!
sue

2005-03-29T07:15:00.000-08:00

hey. yah its me agaiin bloggin. hey guess wat? got my paid. ah. meeting bmb 2mrw. go buy hp. hopefully he can bargain it fer me. haha. seems like he can bargain2. i just cant wait to shut up n see him being all makcik2. haha.

well. wat i planned to get 2mrw : 6260 1st priority.
jeans pants.
3/4 giordano pants
long-sleved t0shirt.
haha. actually lots more. but fer the mean time. dis wat i want. i need to save money lah dei. school fees den who pay?! my sis wanted to bring me go see my dad.cos i missed him much. but wat am i gonna say to him sey?!

"hi ayah. wasup?!" dats all?

hahaha..den wat? silent fer the rest..watch tv? oh no. my ass will be sweating thinking of wat to talk. how i wish it cud be like last time. me and him. wrestling. teasing each other. i miss how we used to make each other laugh. -.-"

hee. i mish baby duck. i like him alot. but den aGain. who am i? ha ha. just a strangerr watt mee...
weLL, just giv me time to like get over the crush..or the special feelings. but he said i love you.. hahaha...
but does it mean anything?! does it?! does it?! no. yes i noe its no.but den y he said it? hahaha.... wat am i talking?!!!!

kk. iGnore me pls.

btw, gLad musa like her bLog. but still the add web is under cover. haha. due to gataL!!!

total madness,
sue

2005-03-26T18:12:00.000-08:00

btw, the werd in previous was LAUGH not LOVE. wahahahaa.. silly old sue. old?

cant get him outta ma mind? y kenoot?

arhgh!
sue

2005-03-26T06:35:00.000-08:00

hey. talking to apit. well. thanks to apit n khidir fer making me love when im feelin` down. got my paycheck. but haven got into my acc yet. well. musa been shopping way to much. she need some spanking.! soon it'll be my turn!

well. nuthin` much to update.

upset,
sue

2005-03-22T19:17:00.000-08:00

awaken to the voice of baby duck. i like him alot.

well. i got a strange dream last nite. not dat's its strange. its just dat if i were to choose my dreams, this will be the last dream i'll ever choose. yeah u guess it. its abt my dad. =[. y? y?!! y must dream oh him.??!

well the dream goes like dis.. .

i was out wif robin playing as usual in our childhood days. out of nuthin we broke a ladder. scared. we run home. saw our mom and sis crying. and the phone was dad. turns out dat dad was furious dat he took everything from our hse. strangely i was sick at dat time. yeap. he took my medicine too. i talked to him on the phone.

" ayah . . .naper amek obat ada? "

he was crrrrying like hell. as if he's choking for air. and he reply was..

" ayah rindu ada. . ."

bang! he slam the phone down. and dat's when i woke up. i was like wow.

its the 2nd time. 1st time was just he kissing on my forehead wif a bright2 light. which turns out to be the reality sunlight. hmmm.. made me thinking. i really miss him uh? haiz.

dreamin`
sue

2005-03-21T19:04:00.000-08:00

damm. 50 bucks fly off like dat.

lucky got another 50 bucks from my sis. paycheck on 25th. damm dat's far away. still got a lot of things to get.
btw, heard the news. musa n sowmi get in. yeah. same course sommore. gd luck u guys. haha. no no not in ure courses.in handling gatal.

things are gettin lonelier. my mom gone back to mesia. damm. who's gonna put me to sleep? who's gonna wake me up? who's gonna make me milo? who's gonna cook? who's gonna wash clothes?

ahhh. when will june start?!! i wan my b'dae and i wana school !!! well. actually just school. cos b'dae doesnt seems like one oso. pathetic. well. im off. nuthin much to write. but der's alot goin up in my mind. guess just to scared to type it out? wadda heck?

oh! btw i sw a jrocker fan!!! he was wearing hide shirt. with the guitaar and x-japan labelled behind. just like my bmb one. wow. i was like.

"eh hide!"

haa. silly me. we talked fer a while. cos the line was kinda long and customer jus hate it when i talk.. cos i wont like stop. haha. kk.

jj !! bmb !! whennnn nak kluar nie?

ahhhh!!
sue =].

2005-03-19T22:11:00.000-08:00

im confused. bah!

my mine's blanke eventhough im thinking about lot's of things deep inside.
but just seems dat i cant get ot all type out.
well. all the best. fer dos goin to sentosa today. hev fun.
see ya.

counfucious,
sue

2005-03-18T19:42:00.000-08:00

hey hey, its now 12 oclock. hah. just got back from pasar. phew~ wat a hot day. thinking of sleeping later. cos my starts like ard 4-10. licky got nadia ah. if not, i'll be like alone. fucking alone. he he.

hmmm let me see wat i've got in store fer u guys. . .

well, baby duck got into finals. dunno if its the finals or wat. haha. but the fact is his band got thru. which is great! he hev all my luck. hopefully he'll win in stardom . hopefully i get to see the final showdown. well finger cross.
i like him alot. baby duck. cant wait to see sunset wif him. well, most probably will be next week as he has a week holiday. as me fer, well finding my off day. but still, oh how i wanted to watch sunset wif him. but wat if after the sunset and dat's all. u noe? i mean it's like dat's it. fullstop. no more. no him. no baby duck. haha. well, just want him to noe i like him alot. ha ha. at times when he say love ya, i noe he doesnt meant it. but, oh how i wish its so true. but den too bad its not. and i just hev to accept dat. no no dun get me wrong. im not rushing into anything or wat. i just like him alot. hope he gets wat i mean. ha ha. well. . . . . . i dun wana think abt it.

hm..nadia goin` to ten mile junction this comin` mon. damm i'll be bored w.o her. no luffter. wat so ever. at least i got linda. but i heard im gonna be under arffi soon. well. finger cross. decided to quit job in june. well. i got to kip in store some amount of money fer school. since i've started werking, i've been thinking. i shall stop depending on myy so-called-dad money. he still owes me 250 raya money according to court judgment. but he didnt. i bet this year will be the same. well wat's raya anyway? ah. raya is still far away. wadda heck. the point is.. i shud like not depend on him ah. tans i got my sis. even thouh she's very irritating.

well. i gtg. musa's buggin me liao. well. stay tune. =p.

love him,
sue

2005-03-17T18:09:00.002-08:00

HaLO evryone. damm.

By the way, i got thru my course after being shortlisted. hmm. scary boh. waiting fer the letter. den make a date wif the sata and the injections. ha ha. carzy me.

hmm. guess "baby duck" is mad at me. hmm~ o_o" i wonder. but i noe y, haha.. noe how perangai i am? ha ha. but its sometimes. well, people can really get pissed off. well, im sorry. u noe who.

wahhhhhhh.. when is the 25th? i neeeed my paycheck!!!

kk.this is just a short entry. i was thinking of alot to post.. but then i gotta shit. sooooo see ya lata~

btw, sorry hor awak.
sue

2005-03-17T18:09:00.001-08:00

2005-03-17T18:09:00.000-08:00

2005-03-15T04:37:00.000-08:00

hey. geez. i almost got into an accident. fer like twice.

1st scenario. hah. in a carpark. damm i was like singing n listenin to my mp3. haha. when a van screeech. no no i did not hear, the markings on the road was the clue. damm.

2nd scenario. i was crossing across to the esso. haha. the same thing happen. this case, a taxi. wow. left a stan on my shoe by his back tyre. damm. jus a few seconds. like even fer a 2nd. i'll be like dead. u noe. haha.

ah.. my sis's home. dah start ah lecture. cant she do it herself? y must be ada angkat buku, ada amek air, ada dis... ada dattt!!! ahhhhhhhhhh! ada! ada! ada! i hate it!

btw , finally. i've realised. i've gotten over kiddo. yesh yesh. till finally. well. memories still linger ah. if ony i knew dat was the 1st n last hug.. i'll hold on tight. haha. "slap self* haha. kk i need to wake up.

weLL, can i trust his words? it just seems so real. so so reaL. but den der's this thing called doubt. it came around. and yes. i knew it. but how i wish i cud like trust him. ahh. but take things slow. haha . jjj's motto. cant wait to meet up jj n bmb. hopefully next payday. can shoopink abit. haha again!

im bored. byebye.

lethargic,
sue

2005-03-14T05:32:00.000-08:00

phew. got an offday today. so decided to update. hmm. let me see. actually not much to update. ha ha. got my ear poke. yey. she lah. buggin` me to polke. den scared2. hah. see. told u im the brave one. geez. like fer real. ha ha! =

went to town. oh my god. think im allergic to town. me and she was just like 30mins in town. and we got itches all ard. itch to get out of town. and yes. dat's wat we did. the ony good thing abt town is the ice cream. hee. yey. but of cous. not the botak head uncle who sells ice cream. cos wanna noe y? he digs his nose wif the same thing he dig his ice cream. or rather ure ice cream. heeeeha! dats y i guess its extra nice cos his customer line was kinda long. but thank god im not in it.

oo. saw sultan of brunei. hee. wow. he came wif the traffic police. its like betta den ambulance sia. all hev to give way to him. haha. wadda heck. shud hev block. ha ha. mad.

wow. pics pics pics. she is mad. totaaly adicted to the digi-cam.

yah lah. tell the truth. me too. lol.

hmmm. lazy to werk. plus. hey! i got through my course of choice. haha. cant tell u wat course cos yes. dat bitch is keepin track on my entries fer sure. haha. yes. yes. think they saw the mid finger dat i flashed. haha. wat a n enjoyable time waitin fer bus at ure bustop uh bitch? ha ha. kk enuff of dem.

oh yah. my course. 16th march hev to come down again. haiz. hectic. hectic.

hmm. guess dat all the good crap i've got.

ooo yah. bmb call. yeahhh..meeting dem. like finally. cos he's like 24hrs busy. werst den werking uh? ha ha. well. see how. hope so. finger cross aye? wow.

see ya ass.

missin` him,
sue

2005-03-03T05:08:00.000-08:00

hey. der's ony 1 good news. vicky called me. from india. but it was private. tink u shud be in s;pore. watever it is. she told me her exams are startin soon. but she'll be s'pore by my b'dae. yey! finally. its been so long. omost a year separated. i miss her so much.

yeah. got my o's result! yey! yey!

see. evrytime tis happen. planeed to post a long entry. but all jus got blank. damm im still wekrin. it just hurts me more seein abg affi all sad. damm.

saw 6260. 548 wiout line. wanted to but it rite away. but didnt. guess i hev more important duties. so much fer a princess uh? sometimes i wonder to myself...~

y isnt my life like her? yes her? der's dis gerl whom i owaes met while goin to werk. each n evryday i saw her walking.. she smiled.. yes. all the way to mrt station. can u believe dat? i mean. its like.. her life is so blessed~
so free~ no troubles~ yah yah. fer sure she's not a mental person.. but its jus so nice to watch her.

y isnt my life like dat? yah yah.. bla bla... i've been gettin alot of lectures..~

life is fair..

we learnt from the hard way..

dun giv up..

try ure best..

buulshit.
bullshit.
bullshit.

sorry. but its just me. i myself dunnoe wat wrong?
thank evryonefer ure lecture. thanks zack a.k.a kental.
thanks jj.
wanted to tell bmb my result~ but yeah. he's got his own life.
yup. told both my batman n robin. at least they supported. unlike my sis. i dunnoe wats up wif me n her. we just cudnt tahan each other no more. i miss my mom. i miss her cookin`. i miss her manje. i miss her naggin. i miss her granny voice. i mish she pinchin` my ass. i miss she slappin` my ass. i miss her wake up call. i miss her. i miss mom.

wonder wat's happen to my dad? i miss my dad. miss his jokes. miss his car ride. miss the way i can litter er car. miss the way i lieupside down in his car. i miss massagin his head. i miss his hug. i miss the way he kiss my forehead. i miiss dad. i miss him. i miss my dad.

damm. no no no. emo level gettin bad. but wat to do?!

went fer interview. damm bad they are. called me a baby. pampered. assholes dey are. haha.

btw tink my dooooodle board is spoilt. repaired it soon kays. haiz.

sign off,
emo sue

2005-02-23T19:29:00.000-08:00

hey u. wow dat gastric really put me into deep shit. huh. dipshit. oh well. i hev to go toilet each evry 5 mins. wassap wif dat? well. told abg arffi i hav to quit job. he seems kinda bumed out. but. well. i gotta. hmm. i must and i shud. errr rite?

well nuthin` much happens. acccepts for gatal case. hah. lol.

been goin home around 11-12. wow. i een miss my train from jurong east. so hav to take a cab home. sucky boh. yup yup. plus der's owaes a rude ride home. once der was dis guy who was sleepin. yet his head landed on my shoulder. tried to move away but later he got baluku how? plus his mouth was wide open like a cave. but the aroma of his haven-brushed-ten thousand-years-of-teeth really keep me awake and tahan-ing not to puke. haha. the other side was dis ahpeks. diggin` his treasure deep in his nose. plus! he was smeeling it! can believe dat scene? oh no! plus im a migrained patient. wif dos kind of scene and the smeels from the both of dem..wow! will just put me rite back in coma. haha.

made alot of friends at my werk place. ha ha. yar even though most of dem ar makciks n nyonyas. lol. dat place will owaes be a memory. lol. plus. i miss gettin free drinks. yest the bangla bought me a v.coke! ha ha. yes yes. plus wif gastric. haha. my stomached feels like its full of atomic bomb dat might explode anythime. lol.

okok. i gotta go help my sis cook. damm it.

chief sue,
muacks!

2005-02-20T04:36:00.000-08:00

hey. 3 days no work. how i wish i cud have 3 weeks! dun hev to see dat hantu gigi animore! went to Alexandra Hospital today. hehe. afta kena chased by abg arfii from werk. cos my fever was so overboard. and i tend to cry whenever im sick. wassup wif dat?

i dunnoe if its the Alexandra Hospital service or issit jus the doc. i think the doc himself is kinda sick. he's eyes is like damm red. and he's like so rude. `Whaty;s ure problem?!" were the greetings i got once i step into his room. sucky can he?

well. after lying down. told him i got terrible stomache . he still can press2 my stomache. wah. he think plastersink ker?!

lucky got she go wif hosp. haha. plus der was this bangla over der. squarting and shooting and vomiting evrthin out, he's like makin the vomit sound, BLUAKKK! BLUAAAKK!! i omost puke on her too. haha. plus i owaes luff whenver wif her. so its like the sicky-mood of me hav gone away. hehe. oh well. at least mon i neva werk.

think of quitin this job.

25th! dooms day. o levels reslut-dying day. haha. well. nope nope. i aint gonna die. and i aint goona turn back time.
straight upfront. well. at least i got a back-up plan. plus around 4 of my frens is in dat skool?! haha. well yeah. she sux. but . . .~ cant do anitin. im fully ready for 25th. haha. bring it on t'chers.

my stomaches like joggin2 inside. evrytime i change my positions. wow. gastric flu really painfool uh? wow. lucky my sis reach home on time. if not. i wud be like a dead crops. dead burning crops wif a temp over 40.c haha. well no joke ok. u shud hav seen me wrapped in dat blanket. guess wif dat temp my bantal busok oso might get burn. hangos. haha.. kk crap crap. guess dis all the shit i can think off. see ya sucka!

suesick

2005-02-15T04:19:00.000-08:00

FLUNG. FLUNG. FLUNG. FLUNG. FLUNG. FLUNG. FLUNG. FLUNG. FLUNG FLUNG.
YES YES YES!! I FLUNGED MY O'S. YES I AM RITE. ALL I GOTA DO IS WAIT AND SEE.

wow. caps uh? hee hee. well. went to bowl wif nadia,tiger, f and n, and luqman-the gay boy. haa haa. so farnie how luqman trying to deny dat his not gay. lol. cos he hit all the jackpots of being a gay. ha ha. well. cos of no money. i ony gat to play one bowling game. damm it rite? well. at least i came in 2nd. haa haa. nadia get ferst. tyco wan~ ha ha. dowan to loose uh me? well.. its merepek. cos i ask for shoe size 3 they dun hav. i mean does oothers bowling hev size 3? hmm. so i have to wear sixe 4. and its like ronald macD can. i took six, den change to 5, change to 4. the guy changin the shoes was like.. wadda heck~ my shoe smel nice ok. hmm! plus the bowl ball was so oily and it slip off my hand whener i wanna bowl. not fair u noe. went to makan aft dat. accompany dem lor. den yes. home sweet home.

hee. slept at ard 2.34am. hurhur.

wah. she wake me up and ard 11. haa haa. planed to go out early. lol. well. it was all due to me. instead of bathin .. but i was sleepin and snorring away like a pig. its tired ok werkin. luckily i was off today. the stock was like. wow. fer a year ley? since a week nvr order stock. he he. den dey order like tak ingat dunia tao! lagi2 si jai. he he.

went to bugis today. ha ha. another pathetic-fun-boring-excited day. window shoppink. wow ex link card really take up alot of money. goin to buy dat chongsham shirt. and dat skirtt. its like wow. and dat handbag, its like double wow. ahhh!! i just realise how faminie and girly i can get. lol. well. its once in a lifetime in a princess's life. hee! gonna pamper my self by shoppink. he he. but feb pay. i really gotta get 6260. cant wait no more!!!! but i think its not gonna be enough. i'll get like wat.. ard 500bucks nia. if i can get it by 500 bucks. den pay my sis 70 bucks. i left a total of pathetic 130 bucks?! wat???!!!! hee hee.. where can sia like dat.. and plus my bestren gettin a laptop! grr grr grr.. actuallly if i waana get one myselp i can. but i gotta talk to ang mail. my sis bf. oh no. i owe him show much. really hope fer my sis and him to get married. hee hee. wah. so many things to buy. so lil money. so lil time.

my offdays off. from now till sun no more off.!! this is wat i hate abt havin an early offday. hur hur. next week. hmm~ we'll see how it goes. hee hee. guess when im enterin ite. i hev to quit this job. cos its like damm far~
plus im like damm lazy~ yeah.

hearing rufio song nows. ands it botherin my eardrum. hold on. gotta change press the button skip.
hmm. aahh~ its betta. the voice of jesse mccartney. i wanna buy his cd.! ha ha. u see? udid u see it?

yes. thats the prob wif me. too ambishes. too imaginative. too too.. deep in my own dreamland. but i hate reality.
dats the prob. =p stupid sue. hee hee.

ahh. now im runni` off werds to type. guess dats all uh? hmm. dunnooe wat im feelin` rite now.

confusedsue

2005-02-11T19:18:00.000-08:00

again. didnt go to bmb hse. jj got gong ci fa cai. hmm. wanted to called musa. but bmb like so angry like dat. oh well. went to queensway to alter my pants. yahlar. make it shorter ok. hmm. everyone's seems so far nowadays. no no. not bcos of ppl not-bothering. its just dat every indivial has been so busy wif their own career. or in some cases. its their studies or werk. on some other things. like me myself. has been so busy werking. onced home. me and my siblings are like total stranger. its just dat we share the same roof. yep. wass ap wif dat? and my bro n sis is still in cold war. not talking. my bro even ask me not to let my sis play his comp. can u believe it? i mean like. afta all its still his sis. wat's he's goin to be? like my dad? oh no no no no way. i miss werkin whenever im off day. sumtimes when im at werk, i jus dowanna go home. but once home, i dun wana go to werk. hmm? yest ony abg jai was at werk. cornie, ivy went to cny celebration. abg arffi was on off. hee hee. summore the shop was like so lil ppl. so we were like relaxing all the way long. talking.sitting.drinking while jai and tiger smoke. nope nope.. not chilling k zack?

yest me and my colleages discover many things being stolen. first there was this tempons. inside the box was 32. but maybe a gerl .. stold 12 of it! can u believe? tempons oso wan steal. nuthin` to say liao. plus der was chocolate kena steal. oh yah! tiger bike's kena stolen oso. u shud see the look on his face. haa haa. poor thing. sommore he just asked cai ling out fer a date b4 dat happen. and got a very shaky reply. haa haa. poor tiger. yep. and jai was like giving him advice on how to tackle gerls. HA HA. nonsense. guys wif their sweet talk. its like eeew can?!

well. okok i think i gotta going. she will kill me soon. haa haa. really hope i get to buy 6260. but i wanna burn cd. grrrrrrrrrr..!!!!! well.. wat can i do?

2005-02-10T04:19:00.000-08:00

hm, a day off finally. but i guess it wasnt off afterall uh? well wanted to go bmb hse wif jj, but.. yeah...
reschedule to dis sat. lucky got 2days off. cos of the blardy cny. hee hee. hmm. i love werkin now. everybody's is so caring. my dm even wanted to pay for me my operation. tonsils operation. can u believe dat? hmm~ yep. me neither. werkin till the shop close is great fun. haa haa. all of us go off like a big group. plus we get to dim the light n play cards with the song blasting out so loud. how i wish they cud blast jrock song. haha. yeah rite. dream dream dream. well since its a off plan. i went to swimmm~ yep yep. hmm.. want3ed to go to werk wif nadia. to companied lina since she's the only one werking. hah but yah lah. ya`ll noe how lazy i am rite? yep. hmm.

wanted to type a a long entry. but i guess i just went blank. plus mulan is on tv. my fav. cartoon movie. yep. gotta make a moce. hopefully get to go bmb hse dis sat. not oni to burn cd. actually i wanted to plah wif his cats~! hee hee.. yep yep! see yar dolz.

sneezing.sue

2005-02-08T04:59:00.000-08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhh!!
tired boh.. yest shop opened 24hrs sia..
haahaa...stay der lorh..wif nadia. haa aha..
fun! fun! fool of fun! but yep..tired of cos..
haahaa..but cornie den brought suppperr!!
super supper yummy sia..
especially when u eay wif all ure frens..
haahaa...luff till all the prata curry come out sia~!
lol. think i goota reject the nus offer.. haahaa..
but i thing dey pay more.. hmm..~
well..hope u get.. lol.

gatal is t;chin students ley..to be gatal..~
haiz..pooor children under her..~
wish dem alll the best.
kk..stop it. enuff..

hmmmmm~ dead hungry.. cant wait fer end of feb..
i want 6260 ley..~ bueh tahan.. well...
thurs maybe goin to bmb hse,, wif my jj.,~
yahooooooooo...... burn cd.. finallly.. can hear Kyo
voice whenever..wherever..i go~ haa haa...

hmm. .. think i had a cold fight wif atok..
haizzz~~ dam it.. i'll make it up..
haahaa.. kk.. im dead tired.. more den 24hrs of werk..
dos customer are plucking my last nerves.. errr!!
lucky got nadia.. n nadia got me.. haa haa..
if notttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt~~!

2005-02-05T16:57:00.000-08:00

phew. reached home ard 12am yest.,
fucking wlna came at 10pm.?!
yah.. wassup wif dem?
cny is no excuse. im too weak to go to werk..
and my back bone still hurts whenver i bend...
oh.. hey! my nus job application is approved..
but since im oreadi werkin...n havin really fun wif dem...
making me wanting to reject the nus job offer..
but .. hee hee.. can i jus like hav the pay?
haa haa..

yest... while waiting fer the walna to come..
all of us hang out at the carpark..
lol. yep. its the loaing centre fer the stocks..
haha..haa haa cornie brought us chicken from her home..
so all of us eat lor.. wah werk here evryday free food free drinks..
lol. no good sue! well.. cornie giv us hanpaos liao.. haa haa
but instead of hangbaos. she gave us toto no.! haha..
we choose a card. lol. afii was like.. "all underage ppl pass to me the toto"
ha ha. waddahack?

wah.. so much time spent at werks..
i have no more social live..
i hope gatal nahna is in good condition..
hurhur.
otei. i need to....
yah. see ya! stay tune.

2005-02-02T21:29:00.000-08:00

wah.. hurt my backbone bad.
lucky yest got abg jai at werk. hep go to the penthse.
i cant even clib. wat else go up der?
wah. yey did my hair like finally.
next misson. yeah get 6260 lo.
kitana can get me 2nd hand fer like 450 sey..
his manager..used it fer like 3 weeks..
but i rather hav 1st fer dat price..
hmmmmmmmm~

can i like not go werk.?
haa haa.. thanks fer waking me up yah..
yeah.. u noe who u are..

haiz. my bro n sis arent goin to talk to each other..
wassup wif life?
y? dun dey care abt others?
ahh.

again. his missing.
cant do anything.
but move on.
oh no.
hm... whenever i try to force my self to feel betta..
i jus fell down right back to the frown..
y? y?

result will be out soon.
which i aledi noe wat i'll get.
a f9 for both maths n acc.
im doom. no poly fer me uh?
well.. i dun mind.. but its such a much longer education route..
i'll be off track on the journey..dats fer sure..
or i'll probably giv up.
the question is.. will u be there when it happen?
if so wat will u do?

ok lah. seriously. i dun even understand wat i wrote.
im typin n sms=-ing at da same time..
ok.. my backbone hurts real bad.. :(

2005-01-31T16:17:00.000-08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh... think i goota delete the links
to all my recent entries.. haa haa.. reading back
my previous entries.. haa haa.. made me think
how pharking emo i can be. which yeah.. kinda
sucky..i agree. yehooooooooooooooooooooo!
2mrw offday.. offfff i go doing my stupid hair..
at last.. a sigh of relief.. hee hee..
well.. yest werk was ok. the stock ony in 3 roll cage.
haa haa..so can take my time and do lorh.
werkin der has really test my patience.. wah...
all the customer.. how stupid n lazy can ppl be?
they dun even bother to find the price tag..
and goin around askin my colleages to scan..
now i totally hate the law "customer are always right"
dey're abusing it.. stupid ppl..
ahh..when can i get my 6260 nie?
cannot wait anymore.. its been like wat..
empat months?? like CAMEL YEARS siaa....
hmmmm... i've been werkin sho mmuch dat i feel
my social life's...
err..maybe it'll get betta...
haiz.. again again again...
when can we four siblings live like dis?
my 1st n my sis fight..
over a key? which i noe is childish.. and yeah stupid..
and now.. dey wont even talk.. wont even look at
each other.. wassup wif dat?
its like they are both two complete streangers..
related by blood.. and living in this lil hse
which looks like a pig sty. haiz..
when's live's gonna changeeeeeee!!!??
how much longer shud i wait...??
err.. been forcin my sis n hans to marry..
haahaa..abg hans say maybe dec ...
yehu!! i'll be away from dis pig sty liao.. haa haa
my mom has been askin me n my sis to move to wdls..
stay wif dad and dat stepmom of mine..
which is totally a NO.. but in this case. im not sure..
my stupid "dad" ignored my sis calls.. even my sms..
evendough i cant make it to his hse cause of o levels..
at least i sms him for forgiveness..the least he can do is reply..
heard my stepmom hold on to the hp n dad credit card..
haaa haa..gd luck to u bitch!
ok. stomache ache.. need to flush it down..
take care aye?!
JROCK

2005-01-25T06:51:00.000-08:00

hey..heard bmb want to buy nokia7270.. wah piang..
sucky..but good function.. haha..
i buying nokia6260 end of feb ley.. ha ha..
i noe lah more sucky... but
sommore got 20 pesen off seyy...
good thing i make friend wif the sales gerl..
haha..cos she oso got ten pesen off my shop der..
haa haa...
ha haha... well.. life has been sucky..
got a fite btw my bro n sis..
chasing my sis out of the hse..
haiz.. no no no.. i dowana live wif
my dad n step mom.. :(
uwek! but.. to tell the truth.. betta..
soooo... im buying a laptop..
but share wif my sis lah..
haha..but i can use more..
hmmm..
lifa has been truely sucky..
but wadda hell..
got to go onn..
i miss u all..
not u bitch. ha ha.
congrats. to the band members..
haaa haaaaa... heard the two bitches came along..
haaa haa..lucky i neba come..
goody too shoes..

hee..contact pit back.. hahaa..
he change abit now.. haa haa..
muacks.

and eddyy... byeeee... byyeeeee...
is all i can say.. thank you ....!

2005-01-23T04:59:00.000-08:00

haaa haaa.. alot hev happen since the fight bwt my bro n my sis.
haiz. den my bro change password.
haa..finally im back from malaysia..
wah..i rather stay kampong den s'pore/
well..6260 i ony buy end of feb/ :(
der's too much to type.
bye.
now on i'll update rarely.

2005-01-08T16:53:00.000-08:00

hey. im werkin today,
haa..still fresh from my dreamland..
woken up by eddy..
hee..thanks eddy.
yup as u guess it.
eddy's back
good or bad. . . . ?
lets leave it up to him..
yar..the feelin` of insecurity is there..
but den... it shud be good..
but wat if he leave again???
which i got a feelin he will. . .
but u wudnt noe
w/o givin` it a try..
so...yar..
as i told him..
aint ready yet..
but i will be.. haha..kk

wah..backbone pain lar..
mommy.. i need u..!!
well.. i'll be goin off to kampong..
on the 20th to 23rd..
wallah~! at 19th..
abg arfi say i can werk..
but maybe up to 4pm..
haha..actuallly 5pm..
lazy laaaaaaaaah...
haahaa...

eddy, thanks for wantin` to make
me a betta person.
i really apppreciates it alot.

owrite ppl.. see yar!
gotta go bathe..
and werk.. and soon!!

tadah~! 6260 will be sleeping beside me.
haahaa...

2005-01-06T17:26:00.000-08:00

wahlaoooweiiiiiiiiiiiiii...
4days straight werk like hell..
can die sia..
i need my mommy!!!!
ony she noes how to massage my body,,

hmm..since i've started werking..
allott of aunties n ah mas
askin me not to werk..
hhahk...dey kinda "pity" me..
wadda fark?
haha..ish..well.. i gotta werk.
means i gotta werk..
today will be the 4th day im werkin..
wah....yesterday was the werst..
since chinese new yr is cumin..
so must get reaady all the thingys..
wah cary 6carton big f&n bottles..
almost break ma back bone arh..
summore climg the ladder..
wah..lucky got this customer..
haha..help me hold the ladder boh..
thanks aye?!
yesterday got 1 new menjen gerl..
haha..bcome my instant friend..
hahah..tottaly gossip wif me abt the boss..
how fussy she is.. wah kenot tahan..
ask her do herself lar..
lucky i nvr fall..
since im the shortest at werk..
so evrywhere i go must bring the crate..
if not the ladder..
troublesome rite..

summore i dowan go for break..
lucky got abg arffi.. haha..
he forced go take my 1hr break..
haha.. summore i alone..
dat time i sit in toilet for 1hr ley..
pathetic rite? ..
lucky got the toilet cleaner aunty..
den can talk for a while..
eventhough some times i dun understand wad da heck she talking..
so jus shake my head..
waahahahah!

well.. today my werk start 12pm to 8pm...
haaaa.....dowan go werk ley..
hmmm! i must tahann.. haha..
ookkkk update liao bmb.

wah i want buy 6260 arh..
but maybe can ony buy the mp3 thingy
on my next pay ley..
but i want the mp3 fastt..
hmmm..see ferst..
summore my fucking dad neva giv me
my 250bucks..
hmm... i told my sis not to go to court..
sick n tired of going to
family court again and again..
so we decided not to tell my mom..
and forget abt my 250 bucks.
as long as my dad giv me 200bucks per month is ok.
i realised dat i have to be indeoendent instead of
depending on my dad money..
and even my siblings..
cos if i go to poly.. or ite..
i'll be paying my own fees,,
plus my mobile bill..
plus my food n daily expenses..
yar..tough life..
haiz.. but i goota be strong..
okok im kinda late.. need to bathe..
wow..i smeel so nice..
bathing will wash all the smell away..
hmmm...kk kinda late..got a lot to tell..
but later aye?!
stay tune

2005-01-04T04:01:00.000-08:00

hey. i just found out sowmi is ok in india.
hoeless , hurt.. all i dunnoe..
she'll be back in s'pore on the 12th..so
kip my finger cross..hahaha

gonaa go to werk!! see yar

happy b'dae my baby musa!!
muacks! lurva yar my friend..
may our friendship glow..
and bloom endlessly..

2005-01-02T07:07:00.000-08:00

haiz. its only the second day of new year
20 05.. and its oready a sucky wan.. good damm it..
first off... woke up late..kenak rush to slow house.
for chritmas thingy..

jus when i woke up.. kena scold by my sis..
den my bro.. i dun mind gettin` scoldin
if im in da wrong..but dis.. for nuthin..
jus bcos dey are mad.. dey take me as a
thing to trhow their tantrums at. . .?
is this wat im for??

wah..i really had a bad day..
i jus hope its not a bad year..
i think its goona be..
hmm.. on da wayy to meet musa..
der's was dis malay family..
wahpiang..fightin like no one business..
hmmm! dey think watt..
zorro wanna be.. usin` their umbrellas pokin..
all the rain water splash on me..
and der werst thing is dat..
dey dun even realise im irritated
and dey had splashed water on me..
wadda fuck??
plus musa's late.. hmm!
yah yah i noe its usual..
hmmm!

but at least i went out wif atok n his fren hafiz.
yeah. it was fun.. at least i had some luffter
yeah.. crackin up jokes.. haha
farnieeee lar dei..
too much jokes too tell..
i dun even remember..
all i noe is der's luffing..hahah
beside all dos naggin n scoldin1 fer nuthin..
we went jp.. haha.. see KUNGFU HUSTLE.
hah. actually tok wanna see at cine..
haha..but luckily..dey noe me..
i hate town..its sucky and human traffic 24hrs.
damm i hate town. but its cool fer shoppin n doin hair.
haha.. so its ok.. i guess it shud be human traffic fuull of
dos wanna be`s.. which is so the ewww...
yeah..geddit? yeah nice... luff luff luff..
but things hav to end some time..

but den.. guess wat??
MY HP ROSAKK!!
yeah.. u got it rite.. my hp spoilt..
oh no!!!!!!!!!
haiz.. time to get new hp..
hmmm..and musa b'dae pressies oso..
i know exactly wat to buy fer her liao..
jus dat no money..
but i will buy..haha sorry fer the delay musa..

hey noe wat?
u guys shud watch kung fu hustle..
i heard some says its nonsense..
not worth while..waste of moneyy..
haha.. but its stephen cheow..
c'mon since whens its not nonsesne..
haha... if ya`ll wanna luff?
jus catch it.. ahaha.. yeah gotta admit though..
too much matrix and animation effect..
haha.. wow. how i wish i cud hav dat Lion Roar power.
haha..kk think too much..
guess my mid jus wonders off w/o my hp uh?
hahah...yup jus as i tot.. today entry gonna be a bit long..
or issit like really long?
haha... kk well.. where hav u guys been?
yah. i noe u guys got ure own life.
hrpmh! i had enuff.. see yar muthafuckers!

2004-12-30T23:42:00.000-08:00

ha ha ha. wat a funny time i had.
yehu!! found a jobby..
near cck. haha. near mittie hse..
lol. hah.. who cares..
all thanks to my sis n kak wati..
the manager of da store is kak wati bf..
abg ariff.. damm he's lecture yesterday was long,,
haha.. actuaally dun belif he's malayy cos he
looks like total cina.. hmm...
yep.. to me..he shouldnt be a manager..
haha..a motivational speaker instead..
haha..wif he's teamwerk theory..
haha..buts it true dough..
haha..he say he employ us cos he pity us..
haha..pity? wadda heck..well thank god we got a job..
yes yes yes..dat means der's gonna be shoppin..
shoppin..still shoppin..and more shoppin...
and outin..celebratin..bbqing...chaletin..
yehuuuuu!! oh yes yes.. new hp.. many ppl say 6260 aint good..
issit truee?? but de other phone oso good...
improved version of 7610..haha. but damm ex..
my sis gonna be damm envy if i bought it..
dat llok on her face is priceless.. haha..

haiz.. im still worried sick about sowmiya..
n her family..in nagapatinem.. hehe..
a kampong in india which hits the tidal waves..
2000 dead..n still more waitin to be found..
thousands homeless.. wonder how's sowmiya..
she must be fine.. i mean she's gottta be fine..
she have to be fine... she will.. she have to..
she jus have too..

again and again...
it has started..
haiz.........
sick n tired of bein forsake..
ahh fuck.

i'll bloggin rarely nowadays..
goota go werk.. yehoooooooo!!
fuck u. bye

2004-12-29T05:12:00.000-08:00

orhh dear god.
my two best friens are in india..
where the tidal killer waves and earthquakes hp.
yak allah... i hope dey are find..
ring up vicky sis..get to noe vicky fines..
but sowmi?? haiz.. call her hse, ho, bro hp..
cant get thru.damm it.. and i noe the
line thingy is kinda cutt off..
haiz.. hey.. u noe the organisation dat volunterrin..
u noe.. kinda helping other countries..
my stepmom was in it.. damm it i shud hav join long tima ago..
if anyone knew it... info me aye?!
i wud gladly sign up..haha..
damm im so worried..haha
kk gtg.. hopefully kak diyana op is smooth.
oh she will be fine.. and sowmi.. dann it..
she must be fine.. she have to...

2004-12-26T17:04:00.000-08:00

hah. oh well. da jrock cosplay was kinda lame
all dat boncett plan lar.
but den..thnks lar..get to see kyo cosplayer.
and aziela too. hah.
but den the kyo cosplayer
hah. but didint took pic wif him.
opps. i mean her.
yeah. can yar believe? its a gerl
wow. really big fan arh?

well. its great day out wit jj.
ahah. go makan wif her n musa.
yeah. poor musa. burnin as da
wantan mee was way too hot.
haha. jj had wantan too.
i had hor fun. yeah.

well. too bad musa n me hav to go home early.
if not. we can hang out longer. haha
well. my sis lar. has been blasting my ears.
wear kyo shirt oso kenak scold. wadda heck.
den must come back b4 7. wahhhhh.
im 16 sis. not 6. yah yah i noe she cares alott.
but still.. its once in a while..

well. cant sleep. havin nose stuck.
so i have to open my mouth to breathe.
hah. how to sleeep liddat??
so awake ard 6 plus..
cos my bro was ransackind da whole hse
jus bcos he lost his gel. wadda heck sey??

oh yar. due to not sleepin.
i happen to switch to hallmark channel.
bamm! da story was good.
its called Gracie'`s Choice.
yeah. abt how dis elder sis adopt her younger siblings
all 5 of dem hav diff fathers.
yah. wat a slut her mom was.
well. it made me realise sum how
my sis is goin thru da same thing.
accept dat she it still our sis.
as for gracie.. its call mom liao.
yeah. and da story made me realise.
unlike others. its ok to live..
waking up in da mornin..
not in my parents arms.
yes i do miss dem alot.
i wonder how's my dad?
wonder if dat bitch is lookin aft him good..
wonder wats my mom doin??
ahhh..

oh ya! been havin slight throat discomfort.
think im havin my tonsils again.
orhh.. not again seyy..
got feva yest and a headache.
i think mus be tonsils.
haha. hope not. i lazy go clinic lar.
but if go bm clinic.. same doc.
wooohhhoo! i want .. i want..
haha.. kk stop it sue.
gotta go doLz..
hola~

2004-12-25T04:07:00.000-08:00

hmm. 2005 cumin near uh?
well a merry chritmas to you.

well. 2004. gd bye uh.
2004 has been a sucky/good
year. haha. good? mus have lost all ma vocabs arh.

2004 has been a memoriable year
as i get to noe pokerdees!
yes yes. he's a one heck af a guy.
damm good. but den.
i lost pokerdees.
so dat makes 200a bein a sucky year for me

but den. 2004 goota noe boncet ma bmb n jj!
which leads me to noe jrock!
and yes yes... thanks so much..

ooo btw. most probably goin to faez plaza dis sun.
he say got jrock cosplay.
woohoo and jj gonna be der. how cool is dat?!

kk. im gettin bored of updatin cos
der's nothin to update.
so yar.
byebye.

2004-12-24T02:13:00.000-08:00

hey ya. haiz. i feel damm lousy.
at least got to go for riding for a while.
hah. yar lar yah lar.
i noe watt i did.
ahh..fuck.
i dun feel good.
fuck off. bye!

2004-12-23T05:29:00.000-08:00

hee! merry christmas to me.
see muh santa. sho kawaii huh?
hahak. of cos lar.
hide ley.. wear santa..
damm kawaii lor.
well my day for today is nuthin
accept sleepin.
hah. daam tired.
wish i cud play soccer oso rather den jus
bein a visitor.
hmm. wei who noe how to post pic
onto doodle board?
care to teach me?
hah.. yah.
damm i mish him
well. at least i get to chat wif him.
but ouch. it still hurts. well.
goota do..wat u gota do..
see yar mutha farkars.
im off.

2004-12-21T03:58:00.000-08:00

kk. i noe my recent entries has been short n sucky.
hee.well kk lets get serious.
hmm.saw zeeks pic jus now.
wow he is. sumtimes i think
of stuffs. like wat we used to plan.
god damm it i mish him.
too much tooo say.
but wat to do..
gotaa go..means.. u gota go.~
how i wish i cud like even tok to him once.
missed his voice. miss him.miss his
pamperedness.
ahh.. gettin emo. dis is where
emo get ugley. haha. me emo?
neh..lets skip dat shall we??

well.. all the ass dat i noe has been
talking abt 2005 resolution. ahh hah!
yesh.. as predicted. i aint got mine yet..
and.. i dun intent to have one..
except dat i want to hav one..
follw me der? haa..

been cleanin up my closett..
and throwin all dos stufss..
but hav no hard to throw my notey notes..
haha..any one wan o'levels notes??
ask me.. haha.. f9 guranttee..
well..as i was cleanin.. came thru my boxy box.
yesh.. its wear i kept all dos mushy and indeed
beri beri memoriable stuffs..
yah.. so i sat down and read all dos letters
and cards..wow.. dat was a blow.
tears roll down. hah. oh no!
wat has happen to me today.
home alone is sho nice.
i can do watever i want.
so..jus clean up and stop cryin.
um not dat braggin ok.
and not a spoilt brat.
hah..maybe to sum1. lol.

ahhh..as usual.
been thinkin abt my dad again.
wonder how is he?
i lost count how long hav i not see him
like wat.. 2 yrs? or issit almost three yrs.
cant he jus reply my sms.
heard my stepmom share hp wif my dad.
haiz.. well.. i got unthin to say to dat..
if he doenst accept me as her
daughter anymore.. wat else can i do!?
cry? neh.. i had enuf of cryin.
no more tears. no more drama.
eventhou i abit drama mama. hah.

been blogghoppin till i get lost.
lost count of thr tracks paths.
hah. but all i read..
mostly was saying how beautifool their life was.
and yes.how happy were dey.. shoppink..
spending wif deir loves ones..
which leads me to wonder..
when will it be my time??
when is my turn to be happy?
i need to noe.
issit much longer?
issit? who can i ask..santa?
haha.. *Slaps self*
get a grip sue.
bein sayin dis to maself.. yet..
y must i get a grip??
y get a grip?
y get a life??
can i jus fucking get out of life?
no no no.. i dun mean death.
i mean "life"
u dun understand me do u?
yup..as usual.. i noe..
how i wish i still hae zeek back.
but no means no i guess.
goota respect..
gotta let go.
hah. y um turnin back to the past??
kk..

i was home alone all day long today..
and its damm bored
lucky got msn.
at least der's ppl to disturb.
bah.
k. i guess dis is it.
goota hav dinner.
and 2mrw. hah..follow my usual plans as usual.
goodey niteys den to ya'll.

2004-12-20T23:52:00.000-08:00

ha. ya ya.. hi again.
hmmm..
i tot i like home alone.. but its kinda bored too..
hmmm summor khidir not in spore.
wah piang. bored lar. haha.. kk byebye!
ice cream ringgin da bell liao.
i noe im not supposed to eat.
but i jus hav to.
poor thing ley the old man.
hmm..k see ya!

2004-12-20T21:18:00.000-08:00

hah. isnt it wonderfool when
u realise who ure real friends were?
haha. ahh fuck.

is today tuesday??
it is!!
tuessday!!
tuesday is da day khidir comin hm from kL.
yahooooo!
but but..where is he??
hahah.. wah... maybe he come back later how??
dennn howw??
haahaha.. god damm it. stop it lar sue.
u sound pathetic..
ahhh kkk....

phew`
isnnt momma wonderfull?
dun believe me?
you try being one sumday.
i noe i hav.
clean my hse today,
wow ley!!!
den go down buy things.
wash clothes.
cook..
wohooo wohoo..
wow sue! got progres..
haha..kk enuf braggin..
dunch wana be like sumbody. haha

kk out.
khidir balek lar cepat dongs!

2004-12-20T04:13:00.000-08:00

hay.
damm it sick again.
sick sick sick.
ony i love abt sick is get to sleep.
but den.gosh.
misss him..
damm it. i noe i shundt ate my cheese fries
damm it!! now migraine is on its way.
wel..gotaa suffer the consequences.
ahhhfuck.
watch oceans 12.
one advice.
dun see it.
where's evryone??
hmm..dun think "delta"
is delta anymore.
ahh. i had enuf.
dowanna brag abt stuff.
bye.

2004-12-19T05:59:00.000-08:00

hey..4get 1 think.
my frien go to kl liao.
wow..misssh him so much..
he the only one fer me to bully lor
evrytime kenak bully by ppl.
hmmm! hope he's safe der..
oi dir pantatt..balek lar cepat.
wakakak... berangan bubble gerl kao..
wahahah...KAO ASAL?!
kk..enuf.miss him

2004-12-19T05:40:00.000-08:00

hah. yah lar yah lar..
i noe my taggy board abit undo..
well not dat undo k..wahaha
well..haha..today?
lol..
lets skip today.

hmm! 2mwr! maybe watchin dat new sha rukh khan
movie.hah.so long haben see movie lor.
esp when musa start to cry untill get astmah attack.
wow! dats the best scene.hah

hah.wah.no job yet.fuckin bored at home.
hah.. no cash. so many ppl b'dae cumin up ley.
hmmmmm,..hopefully musa wont be goin for
her holiday trip...haha..kk

haiz.its happenin again.
again n again n again.
jus when dey needed me,,
dey come runnin..
or not.dey jus bo chap and
tuck me aside.
im tired of all dis.
haiz. enuf is enuf..

im goin bowling!!!
hahaha..wanna come..
if u dare too loss me..come hor.

2004-12-17T04:33:00.000-08:00

wooo..heyyya..
guess wat.. i went out shoppinn..
bpught a few shirt..bought kyo shirt..
yahooo! wanted to buy dat hide tshort
holding the guitar..
but same as bmb.. didnt noe
my kyo shirt same as bmb sia..
wah piang. nvm bo chap.
well..bought a shirt fer my gf musa.
cant wait to giv her the shirt.
hope she like it..
well..she will like it..
if not..hahah
she owes me fish and co. !!
haha..wah kenot tahan lar stay home..
jobless!! 7270....wah..im cumin..
dun worry...hahah..
ok..too much to update..
found out gatal has been readin my blog quite often!
haha..yah u! gatal..
haha..went to bugis jus now..
wow... almost three quarters
are all vonducthies store..
woow! i and dem was like piss off man.
den got dis vonducthis minah..
hahaha..eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
now..offically vonducth is condemmed.
but good news abt today is dat on the way home in the bus.haha..
got dis too ang moh discussin abt
s;pore and their services
esp fast food.. its quit nice to hear
wat they thing abt s;pore..
oh well dats all..
dammm..how much longer mus i wait fer my
hair to grow...

2004-12-16T06:58:00.000-08:00

hey ya der..
er..erms..wat happen today?
hah.. lets skip dat shall we..

jobbbbbbbbb....!
everybody's gettin` it..
y aint i am?
hmmm.. nvm nvm..
sooooooooon..
kk.. my hair jus sux can..
but ok ok lar...
hahaha..
u noe wat..actually der's nuthin` to post
today..
haha..jus cant wait to go bowlin wif dem..
yay yay..and yup..
guitar lesson..
i hope 2005 will be a blastin new year fer me..
away from all the junks dat has been happenin in my life
fer like a few yrs..yess!
enuff of dat...
my new yr resolution will be...
hahak.... tell u when i think abt it kays...
see tar muthafucka!! =p

2004-12-15T05:18:00.000-08:00

damm it.. done it..
i look like betty!! betyy u noe betty..
flinstone's bestfriends wife.
grr.! yah! dat betty lulu..
dam dam..is her full name betty lulu?
wel..wat to do..cut liao mah..
ppl say i look like 12! wadda fuck..
kk..mahagony was like WOW!
fool of professional..and it cost ard 69 bucks to cut hair..
so..thinkin of my sis n maself..
i dowan rebond liao..maybe jus da frinch..
well..dats not impt.. i want to find job ferst..
i bought a shirt! nice..haha.. but beri boyish..
but its cool.. my sis want me buy dos lady-like.
eee...ahahh.. neh... not type.

haiz.. gota feelin delta chalet aint goonna happen. dunnoe why.
btw..heard some of dem oready done a chalet..
so.. yah.. u noe how it feels?

pricked.

hey. today musa's days out wif kitana.
haha..dey two arh..poor thing..
musa got onto the bus..and kitana was left behind..
haha.. she oready one blur sotong..luckili got mrt infront her..
hope she's back..haben called her up yet..
think musa call her liao.
oh well..2mrw find job,
kk gotaa go. bye

2004-12-14T03:09:00.000-08:00

hey dengz..
wow! phew~
just sent my mom off to malaysia..
aww..sho shweet went she go..
haha..b4 dat we had an hour to wait..
so me she n musa gossip..wahaha
damm faunny can my mom..
dah lar gigi tinggal limer ketol..
ader hati nak kenal2 ngn ang moh lang?
wahaha..lucky musa ader.. if not
i'll be the main suspect kenak targeted.

well..bought the pants jus now..
wanted to buy two..
but one can liao..
den 2mrw or thurs i wan shirt..
wah..no shirt to wear sia..
in da end where pyjamas sia go out..
hahah..oooo..
off goes my hair 2mwr!!
yahoooooooooooooooo!!
lucky got musa follow.hahah..
where get wallet sia..
tot of buyin fer musa wallet.. hmm..
as her b'dae pressin..cumin sia..
hmmm.. my pocket gettin thinner lorh..
bloddy..
well..guess wat..dir called me up last nite,,.
haha.. jus after i wanted to sleep after hangin up
wif si boncet..
well.. guess wat.. his drunk....!
hahaa... again.. givin hints hints..
hah. oh no.. im in da danger zone again..
well... only time can tell..
i`ve had enough..
i wan go play bowling..
badminton..swimm..eat..shopp..
wei.. bring me go lar.. bad siaaa.....!!
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!
been home lately..cant wait to go out can..
my butty butt gettin` bigger lor..
but still as cute as usual..hahak..
well.. hope to go play ice skating wif jj sooooooooooooon!!
c'mon..ahaha..
wad sia c'mon?
haha.. k chiow chinniee chiowwiee..?
wad sia.. yadah yadah yadah.kk mad
end here.

2004-12-13T07:22:00.000-08:00

hey!!
my mom goin back to malaysia dis tues!
which is 2mrw. yah yah kinda sad..
well.. im used to livin w/o parents.
who hav i got? all dos i noe owaes bully me!
yar yooouu!!! boncet! batman! robin! and wonderwoman
which is my sis. damm dammm..
she bought rojak today..hehe..
so sweet she remembers wat i wanna eat since camel years sia..
wahahaha... but too bad the gravy aint dat nice..
well. um hungry.. so jus eat lor..
haha.. well 2mrw plan goin buy pants wif musa in da mornin.
pic mom up and send her off at tanjong pagar..
den off to bugis i go..
den wed again go out wif musa...
eheheh... go but my hairy hair! hair! hair! hair!
hahak.. hey.. did ya` check out
nokia7270?? wohhoo..
another flipies flopies boh.. damm nice.
opps hear dat? robin aaskin fer net.
well off i go. see ya muthafakars. =p

2004-12-12T06:06:00.000-08:00

woooooooooot!!
fiannly can update my blogger liao..
my bro has been abusing these comp
since... er.. u noe. since den..
well.. been goin out wif my gf musa
quite a while.. PHEWW~
off gatal fer a few days.. wahaha..
well.. 2mrw got a job interview at best denki..
the werst prob is dat!! its near dat bitch place
lar dei.. aiyooohhh.... later see her how??
wahaha..den i can recomend her some
tool for permanent hair removal..
wahah..since she likes to
remove her hair!..haha
hey.. i canot do my hair monday liao..
my mom goes back to home
sweetaa homee in mesia..
yup yup.. again leavin` me
in da hands of death..
wahah.. well.. one good thing she goes home
is dat no one will be cookin dat much n
delicious.. cos later i eat n eat..
i'll be the biggest baloon ever.. wahah..
kk... hope she goes home save..
*cross finger* . . . .
wow!! FINALLY!! i can blast some
jrock music in my eardrums..
damm it! im addicted to jrock music..
all thanks to the courtesy of my sissy bmb ar..
who else.. wahahaha...
bmb got hide doll liao!!!
and he's makin me jeles... oh no!!!
dat kyo shirt he wears..
he needs some slappin upside down.
oopppss!!!
isnt he just the MEANEST??
well..dats his midlle name..
haha..hope i can go to the guitar shop wif
him n my kak diyana soon..
wahahah.. my? *slaps self*

hahaha....heyy!!
i change my video..
yap. its hide' funeral..
isnt it sad??
been cryin whenever i see the funeral
report.. esp when the coffin part.. and the
fans.. 2 gerls died.. and some were just emotional..
its just traumatic..
luckily kyo is still movin his ass...
wahaha.. yah lar.. gotta admit..
he looks like a small kid tryin to be
power ranger dancing in the video..
if ya`ll wana see.. go klik dat links..
:hide'x: ... wahah... but he's cute ok!!
well.. knowing abt hide jus like a few weks ago??
its just so amazing how a tragedy it must be for him
to go away just like dat.. and leaving all dos ppl who loved him..
esp my sissy bmb... wahaha fer like ten years..
i've ony known him a few days..
and its just incredible how being a person
whose not alive but still able to touch ppl
hearts... my heart lar bodoh..
well... been readin stuff abt hide whenver i get the
chance to play net.. and one n for all..
i love dem not ony fer looks ok!!
well.. when i ferst saw bmb blogg.. jrock stuffs
its was like all ewww`~ neba tot i wud be into jrock
stuffs and all.. but wow! haha..
im proud to say im glad i got introduce into
these madness..
haha..ya`ll can see hide pics at the right
hand side of ma blog..yesh the lower part..
hahah..well.. actually im readin` abt him now..
heres a gazack of it..

Hideto "hide" Matsumoto (ªQ¥»¨q¤H) was born in 19th of December 1964,
in Kanagawa, Yokosuka. His blood type is AB and he plays guitar.
He was the member of Saver Tiger, X, X Japan, hide with Spread Beaver and Zilch.
He also had solo works. He is undoubtfully one of the greatest guitarist in
JRock history, and his voice is also unique and cannot be imitated.
When hide entered primary school, he was very fat weighted 80kg,
almost a double of his classmates. hide was teased and expelled by his classmates,
so he was determined to lose weight. During the process,
he found that personal responsibility was more important than other's opinion,
and that made him a bit egocentric, reluctant to express himself to others.
hide's parent made him participate in many hobbies like piano, caligraphy and so on.
They even brought hide to America for a month-long
Home Stay in Primary 4 to make him more "international".
However, hide did not enjoy his childhood much.
When hide was nearly graduated from costume school, he received a phone call from
Yoshiki, leader of another Indies band "X", which was facing disolution due to member loss.
Yoshiki asked hide to join X, and hide replied with only one word - "fine".
When they met in the Live House for the first time, Yoshiki introduced himself first,
"how do you do, I'm X's Yoshiki"; and hide replied, "I'm hide, how do you do".
That was not dramatic at all, but it definitely changed hide's life dramatically.
X was formed in 1982 by Yoshiki and his schoolmate Toshi,
but not until 1985 did they release their first single "I'll kill you".
In February 1987, X had its formation settled down, with leader Yoshiki (drums),
vocal Toshi, guitars hide and Pata, and bass Taiji.
2nd of May, 1998 - a day to be remembered by all lovers of hide,
X Japan, and the whole JRock scene. hide, guitarist of the disbanded lengendary X Japan,
committed suicide in the morning and was announced dead at 8:52am.In that morning,
hide went home (Noah's Ark) at about 6:30am. His neighbour did not noticed anything
wrong until 7:30, when a woman in the apartment found hide in his bathroom,
unconscious with a towel hanging by his neck to the door knob. hide was sent to
the hospital immediately but unfortunately, he was announced dead at 8:52am.
After the disolution of X Japan in September 1997, hide went well with his
solo works, including "Zilch" and "hide with Spread Beaver".
There is no evidence that he ended his life due to career depression.
Also, there is a rumour saying that hide was reshearsing a "suicide scene"
in his next live concert, and he died of accident.
His reason of death is still a mystery, the Police can only
confirmed that he was drunk when he returned home that morning.

wallah~! isnt he great?? well.. im greater..haha..
okok cut the craps..
i cant wait till tmrw.. out wif my frens..
shoppin!!! hope i can get dat kyo shirt..
and dat pants... oh yah.. i just bought a slipper..
hehe..da one i one.. wanted to buy globed..
but it coast way ooff my budget.. its ard
60 bucks.. and the one i used to had is no more
on stocks.. damm it! my sis wanna buy nokia6170
another one wif a flipies flopies./.
and i aint got one!!!
how pathethic is dat..
well.. im runni` out of werds...
c yaa!!!

2004-12-09T01:48:00.000-08:00

wei. i think sumthin` wrong wif my taggy
gundoo board. wat happen urh?
issit jus me kan chiong??
or issit real? wahah..
damm.. gonna have a borin week..
but the good thing is dat!!
i used my sis money ferst to do my hairy
hair hair hair hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
yahoooo... hehehe.. hope can cut wif jj
oso.. lol.. hmmm went swimmin..
but in da end,, kitana n slow back out..
so left me n my gf musa lor.. weeeweeet..
musa now expert backstroke!!
but im still the master.. wahahaha..
cho tar oready sia mi.. damm it..
kk lar.. maybe i wont be bloggin fer long..
hp off.. msn off... blog off..
maybe.. i said maybe...
haha.. u noe i cant live w/o mah
hp.. kk..i need to copy down my mom
3 lyrics song.. she need it fer her singing..
damm it.. nebamind..gip her chance..
cos i owaes beat her in singin wif mah
wonderFOOL nice sweet voice..
hah.. wat? yah lar yah lar!
up to youu lorx..
wei lets do chalte ley..
anyone..come lar.. bored ley ,.
slack at home.. my butss gettin bigger!
bouncier.. boink~ wahha.. kk craps.
bye you mutha fucker!

2004-12-08T08:10:00.000-08:00

haLoooooooo!!
hee..talkin` to khidir now..
wahahaha.. aiyohh...
jiwangz fuhh fuhh...
kk enuf.. ooo edited
my blogg...hee
take off dat dir en grey pic
cos my sissy bmb says
it cosplay wan..
hah. now nice rite!
wee.yah lar yah lar..
except for dat emo stuff..
hah.. buts its a corner for
me to blur out my nonsense..
cos i dey aint any one
ear good enuff to tahan my craps.
so.yah..dats it..
haha..
wah damm tired. been goin out almost
everydayy.. but den dis sun
actually wanted to play badminton wif jj n bmb..
but..haiz.. too bad...
ya`ll might not believe..but
i have to follow my mom n sis out..
whenever i say kenot..
der she'll go.. givin me the "family lecture"
family come first ada.. w/o family.. bla bla bla..
and the nanny list go on..
but the question is.. where is my family when i needed dem??
haiz.. enuf enuf.. i dowan to feel sad no more..
hee.. well my mom goin back to malaysia..
again leavin` me alone..
hmm.. in the BULLIES..
hey~!! got dis course in mdis
biomedical!! power lar dei..
if i cant make it to poly..
well 2nd plan ite..
den pri dip hehe..
biomedical course herre i come!!
weweeet! DR.SUE...
hahah.. kk its like damm nite.. and silent
oni the voice of khidir can be heard..hahah
have to tahan his nonsense.. lol.
well.. um kinda used to it too..
so..yar.. no pron fer me.
well.. as for 2mrw.. again
force to go swimmin.. but dis time we`ll be the
four of us..
me..kitana..sloww and musa..
hahah.. "diver babes"
lol. secrett...
den ate at commonwealt..
den go home...
and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

2004-12-07T05:13:00.000-08:00

ooo..got see dat dir en grey pic up der.
nice hor? yah i noe i noe..
beri feeeweeet ryte. lol.
oh well. been swimin. again today!
go read my sis blog. she say i dol
go swimmin w/o her. yet her
ippt test on 1oth! wah sure kena force follow her swim
again. buey tahan arh.
later ppl think i from bangladeshi.
weik! enuff kays. well wei
any of my classmates read this thingy.
infroem me if u`re goin to the chalet can?
i neaad at least 80% respond den i'll book.
lol. summore wat u guys want? 2 nites?
weeweeet. lol. well. feelin blue again.
argh!!! my bro went to see my dad
yest. tooday his gf b'dae.
eppi b'dae kak suzy!
kk back to my dad. well.. i longed to see him
one day. but aft see him do wat?
i'll be like.. err..err.. ayah..err..
wadda heck? as if i just knew him sia.
hah. been feelin tired nowadays.
due to jogss n swim. or shud i say
blackenin therapy. kk.. crap.
er.. have dis prob wif my blog.
da right click is not foolowin its order!
got damm it. need some wacking.
well my comp is the ultimate.
woohoo..arrghh..
feelin mad nowadays. been shoutin at my mom
for no reason. pity her.
out of all my family. ony my mom i dare to shout.
lol. even my bro n sis i dun dare. funny.
hmm.well yah of cos. i'll whisper sorry to her when
she lie down.hah. whisper to her ear sorry
and oof i go runnin cos she'll grab me and pinch me
and kiss me herre and der. and i'll be like struggling.
hahah. nonsense sia sue.
well hope da delta chalet really happens can!!
and yes!! it is goin!!
plus me and my gerls chalet..
fewee.. wonder if ppl wud come?
lol.!!!
kk..2mrw plan.. go musa hse..
maybe jogs. if not go her hse straight.
sleep.wait for shakira to arrive.
den job hunting~!!!
den see wat happens next. lol.
had a great day at da swimmin complex wif my frens jus now.
weeweet. fatty couch.. berberd uncle.
nonsense sia we all!!
but too bad.. kitana didnt get to come..
oni me. musa. and slowwwwwwwwww~
wah. i saw dis 6260 hp. black dey say
dey will order for me. ard 538.
chialatt siakk..where to korek from?
den summore sun maybe go play comp
wif bmb n jj !!! sure tag team wif jj
and rumble da sissy hidex down.
wahahah..the lembe-est.
geddit? kk.lame. yah like u.
k oof i go. need to go and massage
my mom leggs.
she goin malaysia soon
leavin me in da hands of the ferst time
bully of evry year..
my bro n sis!!
hahaha.. well.. dey sayang me alot..
but sumtimes.. its like.. er..
arhh.. no mmoood tok abt dem. lol.
kk..

2004-12-06T02:51:00.000-08:00

wah lao. bloody fuck lar.
damm bored can.
find werk oso didnt get.
hmmm..
been goin joggs n swimmin..
wahaha.. damm dark oready lar..
ppl see me oso like bangla...!
yah lar i noe lar bmb...
no need say!! hmmm!

hahah.. well kinda happy!!
dunnoe why.. heee...
2mrw again go swimmin..
wah.. later at nite sure
u all kenot see me..
well... get to sleeep alone today!!
weeeeeeeeee my sis nite shift!!!

wat will u do if u realise dat u`re in love??
yesssssssssa!!! wahah.. no lar..
kk 4get abt it.. no time fer emo..
just let me love him in my heart~
wooohoo..weeeweeeet sue seyyy. . .

haiz..... wei my sis now oso got blog lar~
wahaha..siao boh. me..
well.. beside job hunting..
i`ve been thinkin hard abt my education path lately..
i hope to see my.. can accompany me?
hah.. dunnoe why im even scared to see himm
ferst and formost i would love to see his forgiveness..
secondly i need to talk to him..
cos my future i need his cpf acc...
for my fund.. and of cos..
i will pay him back..
but do yoo think he wud give me??
do you think he will feel the pinch??
haiz.. now i noe y my sis has been
very harsh on me..
making me deaf each day
by annoying me wif
her granny voice....
when i ask her abt me studyin overseas..
wow!! u shud see her reaction..
like as if i did the biggest crimes..
hahah.. well.. wat she say is quite through..
kinda depend on the budget..
and even if i get can a loan..
who want to be my garantor?
wahah..is dat how it is spelt?
well..heard about dis skool in russia..
6yrs doctorate study..
feeeeeeeeweeeeeeeeeet!!
DR.SUE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hard to find you noe..
lol. oh well.. how do keep ure mind
of sumthin??
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!
dats a big big hmmm!!
i cant wait for the delta chaley..
c'mon guys... lets make it happen dis
time round.. no backouts..
and no suanin ok!..opps
err... i think maybe a bit suanin lar..
wahah.. yah lar! i oso love to suan..
well... im really axcited abt it kays!
den i can get out of dis hse..
fer like 2 days.. lol..
at least get my mind off him..
of dem.. off you! hah.. kk
i noe dats crap..

emm..emmm..
wads der more to update yar...??
hah.. if yall need a shoulder to cry on..
and der's no one.. where wud u guys go??
somewhere wehre you can find comfort?
How can I find something
That two can take??
Without stumbling as we
Walk into our future’s wake
I’m like a broken record. . .
hah.that you can play!!
Repeating as if it matters
Everything I want to say
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why
If I was ya gerl.. oh damm it how i wish..i am
haha..neh...dun worry bout` dat
yeah fer sure i'll be coming home
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of man
Honey u`re my start....
You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Show you the way love's supposed to be
ListenYour true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes,

o may god!!! wat ahppen to meeeeeeeee!!
no way! no more dis crap.. no more nonsense..
he must not know abt dis! and yes!!
dats the way it should be!!

oh no!! emo? kill it!
haiz.. its so unpredictable..
but in the ends its true!!
try to fight it!!! but it cant..
but..wallah! i last dis long..
how strong of a gerl am i?
lol. kk.. im crappin.. and
runnin out of werds!

deltaians be prepared for the moment
of truth.. the chalet nite!
momen of truth?
tad the fuck is sue talking??

2004-12-02T23:48:00.000-08:00

arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
my sis n my mom dun let me werk der!!!
wad the fuck sia!!!
dey think easy ar find job!!!
go ask dem find for me!!!
sucka. . . think i wat!!
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
super duper high maxy
mad i am today!!!!!
after wakin up early..
going out to find job..
and when i get one..
all dey do is blast my
eardrums off wif deir
nonsense.....!!!!!!!
yah yah yah..
i noe dey care for me..
but still.. at least giv it a try...
700 bucks per mth...
who want to giv sia...
at least betta den sum works wat..
bloody!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so many things is goin thru ma mind..
all seems to have the same priorities..
dats the prob! i cant figure out!!
lookin` at his pic.. jus blow me
away wif tears~

as usual..slept late today..
yah yah..was bragin` on da phone
wif atok..hee.. sshhhh kays..
yah..so..guess wat? i gotta dreamm
i was walkin` home late from who noes where..
at my dad was sitting wif my bro..
azwan..my ferst bro..
feelin` akward.. i walt towards bothe of dem..
hee..so salam my bro.. n salam my dad..
ferstly my dad look as if he dunnoe me..
but when i say.."eh ayah.."
gosh! he grabs me.. den aper lagi..
both cry lar..
god damm it!! i miss him so much..
so much deep inside..
its has been like wat.. almost 2 yrs
dat i haven seen my dad..
haiz.. feel like payin him a visit...
but tawar hati sey..
ayah oso.. like not ayah..
hmm. . .gosh..thinkin of him
make me cry....
miss eating and riding wif his car..
how i owaes massages him when his driving..
or after we played soccer outside
Queenstown Remand Prison..
argh!!!! i tot life was gettin betta for me..
but seems like its not...
go to hell.. `woooofie woooof
im off mutha fucka

2004-12-02T03:59:00.000-08:00

hah...oh well.. its just
Another turning point
a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist
directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.
It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredicatable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredicatable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

haha..woke up today..such a
Cold and frosty morning
there's not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind
And as the day was dawning
my plane flew away
With all the things caught in my mind
I don't wanna be there when you're ...
Coming down
I don't wanna be there when you hit the ground
So dont go away,
say what you say
Say that you'll stay
Forever and a day ...
In the time of my life
Cos I need more time,
yes I need more time
just to make things right
Damn my situation
and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Damn my education
I can't find the words to say
With all the things caught in my mind
Me and you whats going on?
All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are wrong

and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else
and that's okay cause
I'll remember everything you sang
you and I both loved
what you and I spoke of
and others just read of
and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of words.

2004-12-02T03:04:00.000-08:00

oppsie..porget..
inaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
u betta let me see dat 6260..
and gip me u're new no. if ure
readin dis.. asap kays!
hah. my sis werkin nite..
so i can sleeeep wif lion!!!
w/o anyone stealin it..
yao0ooooooooo!

2004-12-02T02:41:00.000-08:00

hah.2nd post feer today.
hmm..went swimmin wif my sis..
well.. "force" is the word actually..
hah..den go home wet wet wet...
hmm..feelin weird ...
ouh no. no mood for bloggin..
somthin.. some voices is corruptin' my mind!
arrgghh!!! its hard hiding all dos things inside..
esp when u have to hide dos things..
till the end of time.. not like fer a while..
hmmm..well for his sake.. and for my sake..
i have to hide it..

2004-12-01T21:13:00.000-08:00

haa!!! jus as i expected!!!
woke up late todayy..
wanted went fer joggs..
wif my sis n musa..
wahaha.. and musa was awake..
yet waiting for me to call her..
duh~~ stil can watch cartoon ar musa!
u watch out..haha.kk i owe her one
sugar cane drink!! wahahaha..
tooopid sg idol beatin..well
its for fun..and i noe im gonna loose..
well its actually i wanted to treat her
cos she rarely let me treats her..
hahah..even 5 cent oso return me back..
u need some wacking musa..
and ure gettin it soon..
wahaha...
well upon waking up..
cos of sis.. annoying me..
shoutin at the top of her voice..
irritatin me wif "lion" the lion bear
dat we both fights who get to sleep wif it..
haha! hmm...wat to doo..
force to wake up..
ring up musa n vacuum da hse.!
hah. well.. since we're late..
den hav to follow my sis joggs
at 5 today! wahah..where? oh noo
can't tell hah.. wee...
musa come lar!! u eh?
i tot u want to weeeeweeeeeeet~
wahaha.. kk nonsense..
well..atok if u're readin dis.. im sorry kays..
i noe ur're trying to help..
maybe i was being abit emotional!
stop! bmb im not dat "emo"
like u`re besfren kays.wahahaha..
wooooooohooooooooooooooooooooo!!
hey jj got karaoke conteste lar!!
fuuuuhh fuuuhh... u hav all
my supports kays jj!!!!!!!!!!!
wel.. i'll blog another day kays..
i've got to brainwashed my brain.
hah. its corrupted wif nonsense thing!
i've learnt to accpets reality..
wats no meant to be mind...
but wat if.. u noe.. maybe.. he might
have a second opinion.. u noe

arghh! stop it sue!!!
"slaps self hards"
wei!! kk..i'll stop thinkin. it..
i betta hav him den not at all rite??
kk.. u see.. i told u im mad. k chow chinnn chowss~

2004-12-01T08:06:00.000-08:00

hah. phwe! got home today.
damm tired. slept for like wat.
three hrs. wake bmb up.
and off i go. joggs.
run for like a.. 2.4km.
haa..wah.alot of ah mas and ah soh
and ah peks lar. den wait for wat.
challenge dem. hah. no lar.
poor thing dis ppl get bullied by me.
den saw dis lady.the park's cleaner!
and bamm! she regconised me!!
hah! yes! when i was in pri sch
since like wat.. pri 1 to pri 6.
and now she still noes me!!
yaho000000000!
hah. aft jogg when to drink
air tawu at abc market.
wah.nice day.
aft dat met my gf ina.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
pose n pose n pose fer pics
like crazzy..sho tired.!
but for her sake. i just go lar.
hee..den ate wif her.
as usual luff like hell
and she keep tellin me to kip quiet.!
grrr.. ina nect time i'll shout louder..
esp in da buss.. waahaha..

wah. he is such a wondeful guy!
thank god i found him even though
we'll nvr be together. . .

wah.goin joggin again 2mrw.
yiouchies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wooo..made fren wif a quite of kyo fans.
hah. isnt it betta den sg idol. oh gosh.
but oh well. congrats to taufiq for
being the ferst s'pore idol..
and sly for makin' it this far.
hah.

hah.now seems im outta trobs.
ppl around me is in it.
hah. poor thing.
k no mood liao to blor.
need to blast my eras wif jrock song!
weeeeeee! hahak. bye u sukca

2004-11-29T04:32:00.001-08:00

wah..
neside all the luffter i had
goin out wif my frens.
once i reach home.
got a blastin from my sis and mom.
fuck lar!
bingitttt!!!! arghhh!!!
damm moddy tooday!
no bloggin for me.
tell u other days,
fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-11-29T04:32:00.000-08:00

2004-11-27T20:52:00.000-08:00

oi! see..my hp..wahaha..
same as bmb..
yay! dat can d/l all my fav jrock songs
in it!!! and video clip kyo wif cat!!
grrr!! i cant wait!!!!
wah..damm nice can..
cant wait to have it!!
grr...! kyo got used hp?
wat eh? hahak..

haiz..went to kak azi's hse yest..
till today mornin.. haha..
cried a few drops of tears..
cos we were like talking abt my dad..
the most sensitive topic of ma life..
hmm..but it was fun..
wow..kak azi's bro sure will be a cheft one day..
he's pizza is sho yummy...
wahaha..den get to seee cat!!
cik norsiah cat. hee..so cute.
damm! if we were living a new house..
we wud hav dem buy now..
haa..think im buying hamster again..
but must wait till my sis get married..
haiyah..damm slow can..

hmm..can't wait till end of dec can!!!
got money..den can do my hair!!
wooohoo wohhooo..
err... haiz.. got job interview 2mrw..
i hope i get it..cos i really need a job badly..
and cashies..hahahaha..
im so happy nowadays.. hahah..
noe y? neh.. no one noes..
even if it hurts more deep inside..
i'll put on a smile just for him..

muacks! i lurve you my kyo darling..

2004-11-25T16:28:00.000-08:00

hah. kk..i noe i didint go fer
the prom nite kays..
hah..wat? wasted?
haha..nehhh.. i rather start
on my secret plan den see dem..
hah.but hey! been surfing and get some pics
of my classmates n schoolmates..
see..see..weeeeweeeeet!

all the 4i gerls!!! delta sure rox ok..

ms lim!! mah maths t'cher..
hee..weeweet..dress sey all my frens..
the black family..hah..stylo boh.

mah classsssssss boyss!!!
hah.gosh dey look so matured and diff..
dey dun like as if dey are the one
who used to plac soccer outsite our class..
or chase each other wif water bottles...
or wrestling in class n squeezing each other.. *toooot*

yup yup..my classs boys..
and some 41 ..but who cares!!

deltaians really rox uh..
well..gonna miss all of you..~
hmm! i cant get the gerls of my classmates..
did dey go? some rite? hah..wait i find den post kays.

hah.tot wanted to go out today..
fer secret plan..but den..all mah aunts wanna
come mah hse... for wat sia? haiz..
wat to do.. i cant locked dem out of mah hse rite?
haha..kk..no more sad for me!!!
after heard bmb say dat im beginin to be like ***
i was like.. oh no!! issit true!!!
hahh..so der it goes.. another change in me..
lil change.. soon turn out to be a diff rite?
hah. kk.. maybe i'll be goin out later dis noon..
afta all my aunt n cuzins come.
hmm. hey u noe wat?????
my dad ask abt me?
oh..he still cares uh?
but y did he did dat to me?
y? y? y dad? y?
argh!! wake up suee!!!
no daddy!!!
kk..aft dis im gonna hav to work to pay mah sch fees..
dad wouldnt wan me to use his cpf maney.
hah.wadda heck. im gonna werk!
and grab 6260 b4 dem!!!!!!!
hah..kk..im gonna back to sleep.
hah.wake so early for musa lar!
grr..sorre arh. cant make it.
at least atf i meetin dem!
weeeeweeeet! k. byes.

2004-11-25T01:50:00.000-08:00

wah fiangz!kenot tahan lar.
no school.no werk.stay home do what sia?
lay eggs. hah. bcomin lazier n lazier can stayin' home.
hmm.tot wanted to go fer a movie wif atok.
but seems like we each bz witf our own things.
haiz.hey. feel so down. the only thing dat can cheer me
up is dis wonderfool cat i just adopted. damm cute.
wanna see? kays..

awww~isnt she lovely?
i name her udyn. after some1.
cos dey two look alike. esp the teeth.
hee..nice rite? yah.. i noe..

hmm..bmb send me quite a few
of kyo pic..wah.he damm yandaoo ..
damm cute can..
haha.. wat? yah lar yah lar..
i noe lar bmb.. i newbie wat~
see lar..kyo..feeweeet..

kyo when he small..aww~ isnt he just so lovely?
grrr~ i can bite all over himm.
opps! no dirty tok sue!
*slaps herself*

uik..kyo wat u reading? see him..
like uncle ar? wah si beh cute!!!

wahh..kenot tahan oready lar..
all buying 6260 before i buy can!!
haikal is buying...
kitana is buying..
musa is buying but hopefooly she get SL65..
he's buying it...
she's buying it..
wahlaoo!! wei u all.. dun buy ferst can??
hmm.. nvm.. i'll werk o.t.
haah..uik! how can? i haven even get a job!!
hmm.

u seee lar!! damm nice can!!
im in love with it!
grr.. 6260 im cumin to smooches u all over..
opps! hahak. k den. bye!
wei.. bmb..dun block hor..
hahak.. eeee.... sue no shame...
wat? shuddup lar u! buey tahan!
die die must get 6260!

2004-11-24T02:06:00.000-08:00

ok ok.. u all gotta admit..dis pic
sly look like jrock cannnn!!!!
really lar dei.. i oso abitt shoock..
hahah..but aiyoh..u see his face..
maybe camera grafiics...
but really like jrock can!!
haha..oh well..who cares..
kyo is still mine..

hey..been taking alott pics of my bro..
hahah..he dowan others take his pic..
cos ony me noe how to take..
wahahah..see how good of a lil sis am i??
haha..dis is ony one of the pic..
got aloot lah.. but kenot..
too hensem lar he.. haha..
all gerls have to go thru me ferst to get to my bro..
lol. hahaha.. no lar.. kidding kay i let u see one..

wah.been to alot to job interviews..
bad luck can today.
broke my sandal.
diarear. shit2. wat dat thingy call eh?
hah.got a few applications.
hah.see lar if get.
job hunting for me just begun hah.
hah.goin to start my secret plan sooon can!!
hah.. wah just now saw edmund chen. lipping the actress.. lol
wat name arh she?
yah..tcs8 was shooting at bukit merah. hah.
den we watched for a while.
but den to tired.so go home n rest.
hah..we not dat kepoh like u bitch.
hah.no more bitch in my life~!!
byebye sec sch life...so sad.
no more t'chers to irritate..
no more botak tan to disturb..
no more dicsp;ine mr to kacaoo..
hm..well i think im gonna miss sec sch life uh?
hah.oh well. today is the prom nite days.
oi if u..my schoolmates reading dis..
let me see ure prom nite pics can?
haha..i wanna see..sure sexy meksi boh.
lol. have fun yar~
but i noe w/o me no fun. lol
F.I.T !!! haaha..
k den.. adios.
wanna go n snored my self thru the nite..
muacks to my sweet kyo...

*loving him owaes*

2004-11-23T03:03:00.000-08:00

hey!
aiyooh. bmb.. y so clumsy wan u.
so the lembek.. abitt abitt kenak
go hosp! haha.. well well.. feel sad fer u kays.
i hope u get well soon kays.
n dun 4get to put on ure undies when u get home!
later all the nurses keep dem for souvenir of u.
hah.dun luff k u. tempang`
haha.hey. feelin a bit happy..
cos i've got aloott of intervies to go.
hah.well the question is will i ever get one?
hmmmm..~ i tell u kays.

haiz.2nd part of me is so sorrow.
someone has left me. mr.eddy.
feelin so hollow n empty inside.
been waiting n waiting..
n dis is wat i get.. hah. nehh~
just read his msg thru friendster.
tot of like copy it here.
but hey...der's no use.
haiz~ well..if w/o me is the life
he choose.. den i cant do anything..
if being der makes him smilee..
den i'll smile along with u mr.eddy.
guess dis tears wont last dat long.
once ure gone.

hah.im back to square 1.
loneliness.crapz.crapz.crapz.
and er.. yah i guess more crapz.
hah. tot 2005 will be a new era in my life.
but i guess. it'll be the same old sue uh.
wad a sad werld im living.

hah.23rd of no.v
mark the last day of sec sch fer me.
happy cos no more textbook. no more notes.
but i miss all the t'cers.
said goodbye to botak tan just now.
hahas. so sad.to leave.
well.. i'll be back! er.. to collect stuffs n t'chers day!
tot im gonna be happy tooday.
but. its just so sad.too sad.
tot no tears today.but im typin as tears rool down my cheekies.
but hah. neh. i dowan him to noe.

k! im goin to the bathrroom!
to cry my eyes n heart out.
my mom's back in s'pore.
i dowan her to noe.
k.bye.

*tears*

2004-11-21T01:39:00.000-08:00

have u ever feel so down?
as if the whole burden of the world is on ure shoulder?
have u ever feel so down
that ure on the edge of faith?
have u ever feel so down that
u feel as if ure the only one in the
whole bloody world?
have u ever feel so left out?
as if ure fren just push u aside
and acts as if ure not der?
but when dey need help or just simply hi...
der dey goes.. popping a "hi sue"
wadda heck?
wat do u take me for?
a spare tyre? a spare fren?
making me so trusting in u..
but in da end u turn the other cheek
and be a jerk?
wat do u take me for?
wat? a friend?
well i aint ure friend no more.
regards me dead orite!
hah.dis verse is all about me.
once i heard it..its like as if she's singing abt me.
abt me. only me. sue. one n only sue.
its abt me myself n i. my life
betta yet.. sue's life.
damm pathetic life.
read on, it goes like dis :

I couldn't tell you why I felt that way, I felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help it , I just watched myself make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where I belongs, where I belongs?
I wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where I lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry my eyes.
So deeplybroken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
I've been rejected, and now I can't find what I left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems
My feelings I hide.
My dreams I can't find.
I'm losing my mind.
I'm fallen behind.
I can't find my place.
I'm losing my faith.
I'm fallen from grace.
I'm all over the place.
I wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where I lies, so broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry my eyes.
Broken inside.
crying deep within me..
I am indeed very lost...
I'm lost inside..so lost deep inside

wallah.it is wat i hav ever lived for.
ring up a few of my friends.
gotta noe dey going for "raya open house"
and so i just leave dem alone.
hah.who am i to them anyway?
only when they needed me den dey come foward.
hah.dat goes to u to kays.
think abt what u did.and see.
well. my sis i cook today.
so yummy. w/o parents.
i truely feels wat my mom has gone true.
have to washed all our stinky clothes.
esp my bros. eew~ its like so yucky.
hah.but wat to do. sayang him mah.
if never do. who else will do.
hmm.think about it.
just got back from doc.
sorry ela.cos she wanted to come my hse.
hah.raya is over for me.
no more raya. no mora.
hah.wats "raya" to me?
meaningless. accept for the 1st day.
i noe i noe. you're gonna argue.
well.i have my own principels n believes.
hmm~dunnoe y i feel dis way.
haiz. 2 more days n 2 more papers to go.
and im free from the chamber of hell
the o'levels!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hence its bio paper.wallah~ my feveret
subjeks of all. hopelly i will it well yar~
den got to take out my lil notebook.
and start my secret plan! tadah~!
2005 will be a changing point..
or a turning point for PrincessKyo.
wanaa noe y? wanna noe?
boohoos. secret is secret ok.
just wait and see! dowan see den ure pasal!
6260 !!!!! here i comeeeeeeee! cant wait to grab dat new
flipies flopies hp nokia.
si beh nice can. yet so businessish n stylo~
suit me. haha! dun luff k u.
later i use let u ppl see.
hah.! nehh~
hmm..goin to watch the "shutter"
wif atok dis week.
ahak. read from news the actor really come
face to face with the situation in reality.
hah.how scary is dat? or issit just me?
hah.well.dats it for now.
muacks! loving my one n only sweet kyo~
i just love dis pic!

hah..ben mckenzies sho cute uh~
damm it. o.c gonna end soon.
hope s'pore will telecast the season 2 soon.
yahlar yahlar~ i noe lar bmb.
hang naked at orchard road kan?
hah. well my bon bon is damm too cute to be hung der.
uwek!

see..see my new oncoming hp!
yay yay!

yay yay! buy hp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i just love dis flipies flopies..~
si beh chio can!!!!

hah.kkays~
bye u smuggers outdere.
*off to living in her world of fantasies~*
*bish! and noe one aint gonna stop me ok!*

2004-11-19T05:02:00.000-08:00

hah!posted twice today.so wat?
its my blog.hah.my vid still stuck2.damm it.
wallah! just as expected.
taufik n sly embark the next level
of idiotic idol..
the finals~
tadah~ of cos taufik win lorh.
the whole police squad will be his base.
sure outnumber all dos
ah lians and ah bengs to vote fer sly.
hah.so wat? their are not idols
it such be more like a "Star"
hah!wadda heck.who cares.
bad.well.all my luck.wallah!
hah.vomitted again.so sucky can.
hah.bye u jerks.
oi u bitch.enuf reading my blog lar.
hah.dun think i dunnoe lor.
k.den.kyo i love u~

2004-11-19T01:47:00.000-08:00

hoi! accounts paper 1 was so nice can!
but due to paper 2. fail larh.
hah.haiz.think i happy ar fail.
ure head.doinkieszies.hmm!
went to doc just now.
wah lao.he damm yandao can.
haahh! till i speechless.lor.
luckily he beri friendly and caring.
sho shweet. hah! but abit akward lar.
hah.aft 6 mthns need to see him again!
to see if anything happen to me.
hah.caring can? heeeeeh!
wah! exorcists 3 ordy kenot tahan.
how to watch shuutter like dat sia?
boink~! sure hide under atok armpit wan.
confirm! hah. 100%. many ppl complain me say scary.
uyooh.die.hah.
went to ljs jus now! wah.so long haven eat ljs.
lol.sit fer like wat..2hrs plus.
my nice beautifool cute butt got cramp liao.
hah.went to this hp shop. power cann 6260!
hah. kitana n me wan buy!! wah..
548 bucks i guess. minus my hp 160 bucks.
how much eh? hmm..still can manage wat!
hah.but first come first.
got chalet to go.
got musa n me secret plan.
got musa b'dae.
got bbq.
got shooppin.
got hair to do.
hah. can cut hair like kyo?
hah.siao boh.
hmm.come to think of it.
surely did badly for o'levels.
humans die.
maths die.
accouns forver die.
so lil subs left.
bloody ass m.o.e
hmm.k lar. buggin me to update rite.
hmm.tot i update so many times liao.
dun tell me u read all.
oink oink.wah my right klik faaaalse can werk!
hah.u try lar.try to right klik!go try.hah.
maddy.hah.cant wait to finish sch.
go kampong.get away from all dis mess of my life.
mess. wats the use of living is all u feel is hurt??
for wat?? wat?? suffer? had enuff of it.
hah. SUFFERER. ork oh! flashback!
sufferer.gosh.best guy ever.still owe him 40bucks.
hmm.hah.enuf.enuf.enuf!
sayu hati ku~
mudahnya kao mengantikan diriku~
seolah cintaku tak berharga~
oh no!!! seee!!! stop it can u.
hah.come to think of it.
hah.i wonder who wud waste time n read dis.
dis thingy im typing.hah.who are?
all dos who wanna bored demself to sleep ar?
hah.kk.lame can u.nonsense.
hmm.cant wait fer chalet!!!!!!!!!!!!
all the bungs to ourself!
me u n u! hah.was decicding just now wat to buy,bring fer chalet wif musa kitana n slow.
hah.damm noisey. think kenak chase out of ljs.
wohhoo! we got 10bucks voucher off thaiexpressssssssss!!!
woooty wooot! can go eatt! hah. thanks to kitana n musa.
go take part in public competetion at t.b plaza.
hah.damm brave can. i and slow was like so maloooooooooo.
hah.u noe me rite?hmmm. kitana get wat eh? voucher oso.
lol.cant wait to eat thaiexpresss. woo.
hmm.now i realise.when im witf dem.
i forgot all my probs.
making dem luff their ass out..
making den luff till dey tears..
realise how happy we are together.
but when we are separated. its like. im a diff girl.
yup got've some frens outside. but still.
not likde dem.hah.arrhh..sho shweet memories.
hah.been reading few blogs.
suddenly feelin am i loosing out not going fer prom nite??
hah. dat mrs lian has been like forcing us to go prom nite
as its one in a lifetime thingy.hah.
but so wat? big fuck? hah.wif all dos ppl.
hah.dat bitch shud hav gone.damm it dey didnt.
hah.if dey go.still dat bitch say buy dress liao.
hah. me n my frens was like. " ohhh no!!!!"
hah! sure go permanent hair removal b4 promnite.
hah.badd cann me? hah. kk. no more abt dem.
no good toking bad.hah.esp abt dos bitches.
waste of time can.lol.
hmm.hah.noe wat??
wat wud u do if ure woke up n realise u had cancer?
hah. oh no. lol.

hah! got watch o.c. hah. i noe wat gonna happen.
spent hours reading abt dem.hah
3 more episode nia.
well.lucky got season 2.
hah. k. i gotaago n mugs fer bio!!!!!
bio rox ok. but kyo still de best.
love hims lots.!
hah.

2004-11-17T05:24:00.000-08:00

ever feel like u lost all of them?
ever felt being pushed away?
ever cried sho much in the end u realise they ain't coming back?
ever felt u lost someone u trust alot?
ever? have u? ever?
think about it.
then u'll understands me.

2004-11-17T05:06:00.000-08:00

hah.geog n fnn paper was stupid can.
i was sleeping n yawning when doin the paper.
aiyoh.bitch y run away when i come.
hah.i want to wish u happy b'dae ley
got voucher for permanent hair removal for u.
lol.hah.im so bad.
hah! over my dead ass.
good.run away more can?
since u ureself claim ure a hiv positive.
hah.cant beat me rite.
cant wait till 23rd.
hah.who cares.
fuck life.
fuck you.
im gone.
bye.

2004-11-16T01:56:00.000-08:00

Biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu
Biarkanlah aku merindu sekian lama
Bukan maksud untuk membisusepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian
Mungkinkah bersama dua jiwa ini
Dalam mencari cinta sejati nan suci
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
Akan terabat kini
Biarkanlah saja diriku sepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian
Hanya satu pintakuSabarlah menanti
Ku kan pulang bersamaCinta...

hah.i feel damm lousy. fucked up life.

2004-11-15T22:22:00.000-08:00

hah! talk to atok yest.hah!till ard 2a.m. hee.
isnt he just too sweet? yup yup yup yup yup
he is indeed.hah! atok if ure reading.
i enjoy talking to yah.hah! but sorry abt my couhging
and rock voice.hah! "jgn luper dtg umah atok"
"air special nek dah siapkan"
hah! im mad. brrr... hey n u noe wat?
yest nite. i didnt cried myself to sleeeeeeeep!
wallah! tadah! wooooooot! at the last.
hah.see me so happy rite? haiz.
well.no one noes.boohooohooo.
knuttin muchie today.
just kemas umah.
den go study
study study study.!hah!
cant wait fer chalet! yahooooozies.
no gatals.no bitch.
damm nice rite?
hah.got food.got bed.
oni for us.yahooooooo.
k lah.suddenly no mood to blog.
cos of u lah.doinkieszies.

2004-11-15T03:54:00.000-08:00

hah. i noe lah BMB. u no need say. i newbie rite? hah.

2004-11-14T23:24:00.000-08:00

hah.raya raya raya.
i guess evryone must be happy raya-ing.
well not me. guess wat.
first day of raya.woke up.
wanted to wish my mom
and seek thierforgiveness...
but to my horror..
no voice came out. i was like..
wadda heck? trying to shout.
but i sounded liike wat noe..?
eva heard a pondan-trying-to-act-gerl-voice-tapi-tak-jadi?
yup. exactly.
well.. cried to sleep.
cant sleep. noe y.cos raya seems meanigless to me.
where's dad? where's the family?
where's my family? where's the love?
huh? wat? all sort of question i've been thinking to myself.
went to mak long hse.fighting a war in my stomach.
can cry sia.well tahan. but werst happen.
vomitted at maklong hse.so deciceded no to eat.
deciced to sms my dad at nite.
wished him raya n ask fer forgiveness.
well.as usual no reply.
so dats it. my so called raya day
hah. wat a life. i've got no one,
as i said. behind this smile.
no one noes how much i suffer deep inside.

today 2nd raya. i went to the clinic.]
sms jj.and atok. cos im just to scared.
jj wanted to company me go clinic.
hah.nvm.i just dowan to disturb her.
wanted to sms others.
but think twice. come on sue.
peeps must be bz raya-ing ,i think to myself
i realise i kenot treat others as if their fate are as bad as mine.
so decided not.they've got their loves ones to celebrate with.
what have i got? tears.dats all.
who am i to dem? just a soul.
so.
when i went to clinic.
just to noe dat it was closed.
as its publik holiday. so went to ina hse.
hah.so selekeh.so malu.
noe y? cos i went to 5th floor instead of 6th floor.
so skali one autny open the door..
den i pretend to walk away. hah!
wat a "blur" girl. hah.who eh?
sue? no sue not blur. sue''s brilliant. rite?
well.jus sit wif her. hide from her aunty n
sit in the kitchen cos her autny wont
let me drink coca cola. hah!
luckily ina gip me coca cola.
so chat a while at her hse.
to my suprised.all my mirc kakis remember me.
yet they so sweet.hah.
on my way home.
saw so many ppl raya-ing.
all look at me..the selekeh gerl..
like i don celebrate raya. hah.
let them be.wat most is.
i saw this man. a man i've been observing and
owaes owaes saw him at my hse bus-stop.
just looking at him. i;ve learnt alot.
its just so allegance how he moves.
all he depend on was his skateboard.
he doesnt have legs.yet a strong build up hand.
biceps.! reminds me of bobo.hah!
well.wonder how he survive.
today he wores baju kurong.
underneath it..well..i dowan think abt dat.
looking at him.so patiently pushing himself on his lil
skateboard.just so touching. he've got so much patience in him.
while he push himself on the skateboard.
he looks ard. looking up at the trees.looking of the floor.
one time he stops and look at the ants bz wif their lifes.
he smiled to himself.really makes me wonder.
how wonderful his heart must be.
i was so engorssed in him dat i miss a couple of my bus.
well.while staring at him. he turn and look at me.
all he do is smile and skate away.
aww.i dunnoe y. it make me smile all day long.
so i went up to him.seeing him struggle a bit to went up the stairs.
i gotta admit he does smell bad. but he smile just washed it all away.
looking at we ppl. owaes complaini on how boring life is.
life sux.life's bored.some even wish they were dead.
but this man.a stranger dat i've learnt alot from.
just think abt it..
what if u were him? u noe.
will u be as strong as him.
think abt it.,. u noe..
what if...
what if. . . . . . . . ?

You know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart
I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I wanna be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you

2004-11-13T03:36:00.000-08:00

yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! bish! delta rox!!
but dis yr no good.hmm!
last yr we are still the b gerls champion!!! 2 golds!!!! yah0000000000000!
my boat.. so nice rite..

see..my bipren posing..awww..kyo sho cute.

2004-11-13T01:46:00.000-08:00

"sue..dont leave me sue.. dont u dare leave me"

said a guy with hoarse voice.. he's crying..
holdin tight to my hand..but the problem is
i cant make out his face..it seems blur..
all i can see clear is his lips..
his wide red lips..

so i said.

"go back to ure fiance dear.shee needs u more den me"

but he refuses.instead he clams my hand tights.
so tight dat our hands turn red.
while i was gaasping for air.
fighting for the last breathde.
he is der.looking at me.
he den held my chin up..
and kish me on my forehead.
gosh! it melted my heart.
he made my heart pump so fast.
yet so slow at the same time.

"i love you sue. i've realise it too late"

"thanks sue.without u, iw ont be alive"

and then i went blank.
beside me was a table.with a note
of cofrimation of a bone narrow donations.
and its fer him. oh no! i cant believe im dat kind
well..a pain shot up my shoulder.
i noe its time for me to go.
so i said to him.

"im sorry i cant be on ure weeding day."

"and yes. i love u too. too much"

and den he hugged me.so tite.
i cud hear his heart beating. his tears drenched my chubby cheeks.
so i hold him tite.clamp his hands.and put it on my heart.

"dup.. dupp..duppp"

goes my heart.sLower and sLower...

"sue! no!"

he shouted. i smiled.

"relax sweetheart.in a minute."

haha.he giggled.

"are u scared" he asked

"all im scared is waking up not baing able to see u anymore"
"i noe we are not meant to be together.i jus wan u to noe ure a wonderfool guy"

he burst into tears.and hold my hand tite.
so i hug him and lie on his chest.

"honey.im goin to take a nap.when i wake up.i'lll make u some tea"

"sue! sue!"

he shouted.feelin so scared dat he trembles.

so i placed a finger on his lips.

"ssssh my love. i cant take a nap wif u making noise"

and den der i go.up to heaven.
suddenly my mom blasting voice called for me!
time to go market.dats dream changed me.
dis dream is so special.dat i can remember it vividly.
waking up wif my pillow wet wif tears.
i realise.if i love him sho much.
i shall keep it to myself.
and try my best to smile on his wedding day.
and yes. i should.
hah! the question is. who the hell is "he"
in dis picture.!
hah! well.. no one noes.
accept me myself n i.
and no. i wont tell anyone.
cos i cant.trust me guys.
i cant. how i wish i could shout to the werld his name
but no. i really cant. so i wud appreciates it.
if u dun ask me.sorry.

well! the last day of puasa.
and i cant puasa.hah. u all shud probably noe y.
hah.finally aft 2 motnhs.LoL.
kk drop the topic.my stomach cramps like hell.

hmmm..just send almost evry muslim on
my fwenster list a hari raya greetings.
well..i hope so. hah.
2mwr being raya day. my hp will be off all day long.
hah. fer me to noe.fer u to find out.
2,wr will be one of the saddest day of my life..
i dun wanna share it wif a soul.
cos i want u all to be happy.
hah.hmm..wat more to update.
oh yah. been muggin fer geog n f&n!
wah! so many to learn can f&n!
the whole bboooooooook! wahaha..
i cant wait fer o's to finish.. wanna noe y?
cos.. no more bitch face!!!! yah00000000000!
and no more gatal to irritate me!!!!!!!!!1111
yes! yes! no more..
den i can go out wif ma frens!
can shop! can eat! can werk!
opps! yes werk.! i mush..
now i oni got 23 bucks!
LoL! my sis bought me baju kurong..
wee! but i got no moood to raya.
gonna stay at home n mugs! fer my o's
ok.. gotta go and eat! mooacks! lurve u all.
i love kyo most ok!

2004-11-10T21:13:00.000-08:00

hey.. guess wat.. my bro change comp passwerd.
idiot rite? stingy rite?
haiz. wat too doo..

slyvester!!! hee.. i supported him.. cute ar he do jtimberlake..
well taufiq did well too..
wahaha.. BMB's twins! LoL
k enuff..
kyo is still the best!!!!

cute ritee?? wahahaa.. esp kyo.. yah i noe i noe..~
k lah.. i gtg.. got to mugss fer o levels!!!
im so scared..~!

d.e.g rox!!

2004-11-09T05:20:00.000-08:00

uit.. heyy.. no no..
pls dont tell me this feelins back..
pls no. no.. no wayy...
i duunooe why...
i dunnooe wat happened
dat made me feel dis way..
maybe its just me..
Looking around..
all those ppl ard me are havin'' a great life
ahead of dem..
look at all of dem..
enjoying life..
waking up wif a smile..
looking ahead to live life..
even for my shoolmates n classmates..
no matter how much muggin der do..
i still see them smile at school..
have dey ever realised if i were smiling away too?
dats the prob. even me, myself and i
dont realise it..
cos as far as i noe..
i did not..
haiz. i hate feelin dis way.
why eh? hmmm..
issit cos i lost him?
no kenot be. im over him.
issit bcos my o's?
yeah maybe.. but im dat moody cos of o's
hmm.. wat reason is der??
i really dunno y..!
aargh! hate myself!
maybe i'll be goin back to kampong
after o's for a few days or weeks.
well.. der i cud have a piece of mine.
but still.. i'll miss the ppl in s'pore.
wadda heck. wat a life i've got.
maybe its cos of mf family!
yeah! ya! maybe it is.
i miss my dad. we used to go to malaysia
early in the mornin like 1 or 2
to eat! and just travelled in the car!
but now.. no more! no moore daddy's gerl!
no more ridin' in daddy's car! no more daddy!
gosh. wat is happening to me? pyscho or sumthing.
haiz. i feel down. im really feelin down.
very down indeed.
will i eva excel?
im runnnin out of werds.
but der's still alot of thoughts in ma mind.
its just dat.. its just dat..
i cant get it out.. y? y? y?
the question is y? and yet i myself dunnoe.
wadda heck?
you must gettin really bored readin dis.
well.. borin is the werd.
welcome to muh life.
im closed to the edge where
the end of the hope stands..
where the end of faith stands..
where no one stands..
just me.. me..only me..
typical sue. me.. one and only me.
yep! dats rite. ure lost and noe nuthin wat im toking abt rite?
yesh. me too.
is dis symptoms of depression or wat?
huh? wat? it is.. yes.. just as i predict it.
its so predictable. you dun havt to say anything.
one week break. need to mugg alotts alotss
esp. geog . luckily got dat mama mrs lian.
she and her bush on her head wont let us of easy.
and dats y i love her. she loves me too.
i just noe it.haah!
and accs. eee.. accs. oh no.
i need to force myself for accs.
i wonder wat kitana will be doin fer accs.
waaah! dats a day im lookin foward to.
k. i gtg
oops. wait.

hide^X getting ready says:
ok
hide^X getting ready says:
du forget to mention how u like me
hide^X getting ready says:
hehehhee

eww. see dat? dats my bmb.
no shame rite him?
well.. gotta tahan..
cos he's mad.. yet a so called
"NICEst" guy.. he self proclaims.
well.. dats fer now.

2004-11-08T19:04:00.000-08:00

kyo is soo yummylicious!

hee...

wah.bloody dumb chem paper..
it was inddeed hard.. maybe fer me..
fer all dos smart alex of cos not..
most of wat i study didnt came out..
suck yarz!
well.. wanna one good thing?
dat bloody bitch go and draw covalent bond
when its supposed to be ionic bond!
yahoooo! serve her rite fer bitching ard
way toooo much abt me.
wahaha.. evil um i?
well..ure evil-er..

wooooooooo! one weeky breaky..
but still.. got raya.. haiz no moood to
raya oso.. hmmm..

oh yah.. my BMB sick..
poor thing.. see lah bmb..
make me worried.. wahaha..
well.. hope u dont have to go fer
the blood fusion thingy
and dat u'll be ok b4 raya kaes?
thanks fer alll ure support..
and one important fact..
bMb m as MEAN kaes..
not MACHO kaes.. so dun act
kaes u? wahahaha..

uik!! dats all fer today..
i'll try to update other days..
i wanna change a bit of my blog..
wat to put eh?
hmm. . .
i wan new hp!!!

wahahahaha
see my kyo quick!

fuyooh.. si beh hensem.. lurve you darlings..
im livin in dreamland rite? shhuddup u..
cos i love my land.. all dos ppl i love is in it!

2004-11-08T02:34:00.000-08:00

aww~ iann.. he sho shweet.. the wiiner fer the bachorlerette.. hee.. if i were marydeth i oso will choose ian.. so good luck guys.. kyo~

2004-11-08T02:16:00.000-08:00

i wan dis hp sho mmuchh can! anyone got lobang to get? hee... aft o's must werk and buy dis baby on mine! if not..

dis one oso can lahh.. but got blueetooth.. maamaa lah.. ee i dunch like.. so thank u ar eh..
i noe my b'dae long time.. so gip u all enuf time to save! LoL.. no lah.. i'll work my own sweat off my butss to get dis hp!! weee!!

haiz.. maths paper was hard.. didnt think i can pass maths.. ~ bLoody scum ass o level.
but other papers i confidence pass! err accept fer principles of acc.. dats another scum filthy ass..

2004-11-07T03:52:00.000-08:00

lawa kan? my hse in malaysia.. my paradise..

this is where i went to fishingg..~ ate all does ikan sembilang "cat fish" fuyoooh..
the best cusine i've eva ate...adn i used to bathe in the pond when i was small togetha wit my relatives
but end up gettin whacking on the butts cos we are not supposed to..

this is where i have my piece of mind.. relax and not think abt anything.. accept me n kyo =p
bluek!

this is ma cutest, most fun, most funny uncle eva!! cos he loves to munch like me..
and we owaes sneak to the kitchen togetha in da nite to grab a bite! ant tok crapz
till morning.. and when ppl are up working in da morning.. we'll be Snoring awayy~!!

yup yup.. dats my kampong life.. der's still some pic but i cant get it on photobucket just yett...~ so i'll try to pose if i got time aitez..! kaes.. gotta go study fer maths p[ii] adn chem..~ btw.. my tonsil are betta.. thanks to dos who cares..~
musa! thanks fer ure hari raya kad kaes.. hmm! u lied.. i told not to write rite.. still can say wanna write in ure diary.. and i was like.. wat? musa got a diary? oh no! hmm..well.. nevertheless.. thanks alott.. ure gonna get a good day of ure b'dae ahead.. im oready planinng.. LoL.. kk sshh...